c hw long can i still relax..

[+_-MiSS-inG Him... LOads-_+]
**I WON'T let this Memory FaDe AWAY.**
I miss BSG! Qns will keep swirling inside my head. How can I get to know him, his name? When can I c him again? Hmmm... or when will this stop? N seriously, y did he ever appear?! I'd very much want to ask God. *humph* If I can't even get to know him, wat for make him appear in my life? It's like, useless. I c him, he c me... wat happens next? Nobody knows. Pray so hard, for wat? None of them will come true, like no use. But I know, wat we often pray to get, we wont get. But wat we get, is wat we really need. N God has completely settle tt for me. If its true, prove it to me. Cuz i'm slow, I cant c tt happening to me. M I really tt being loved? Love cupid doesn't struck at me, I know.
All we do is to wait. We are waiting every second of our life. Wasting our time to find love when it doesn't actually happen. This makes me feel like a complete idiot. Complete idiot on the field of finding impossible-to-get-to-know-BSG. Mr Vijay once said, "If u really love some1, let it go. If it comes back, then it's urs." But, mine didn't even start. Let go.. yea yea.. but how? i'd like to know. *sobs*
everything just came crashing down nw, Programming assignment, my mood, my bsg. all came crashing down. argh! i dont wanna say anything anymore.
BSG: Will u ever know tt in my every post u r definitely in it? sometimes i wonder, wat for? jux tell me u dont like me, i'll give up. u muz tell me using ur mouth. then i swear i'll giv up.. for u r e 1 i will nv forget..
this all shouldn't have start. this all should hav been ended since dec 11. u should not have appeared in NP. In westmall. In anywhr in my life. I will completely give up by nw if u didnt appear. bt y did u appear for? reason unknown. reason not revealed by God.
A day that passes,
Means a day nearer in meeting u.