i'm trying.. hard.

我发誓要更努力 更有勇气
等下一个天亮 去上次牵手赏花那裏散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂
等下一个天亮 把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘著雨还是眺望的眼光

LWJ!

): sad now. 1 whole week never see him already.
just 1 time a week and can last me 7 days. (:

met up with yixiang to have a study session.
and he kept telling me, i'm shorter than Reg.
herr!

saw that scout boy. hmmm... well I kind of always see him in BPP. but i don't know him, I just know he's from Dunearn and is from the scouts. =P
and Reg says he's kind of cute. (hahaha).
don't ask why I wanna blog about him. cuz I'm curious. yeah~

p/s. I hate exams!

another gone case day, not?

Heyo~
********29May2008*********
Daddy drove me to TCP for company visiting for attachment. (:
reached at about 8.35am.
waited for another guy.
well he reached at about 8.55am. (well, I saw him in school before but don't know him personally)

they gave us a task to do what we have done before in our DWA.
super nervous, I went to use their comp as mine doesn't have SQL. so I don't know how to use theirs and everything went haywire. (nice one)

when the guy tell me to run, the page went blank and errors came popping out. ):
then he ask me to go into the room and asked some questions. ):
left at about 1pm when I have to get back to school by 1pm.
but Daddy came to fetch me and took me to lunch. Haha!
reached class at 2pm.
luckily teacher wasn't there, she went somewhere~
): this made me feel sad the whole afternoon.

butbutbut, wei wei surprised me with this!

hello kitty coin pouch from Hong Kong! *love*

after school, went BPP with darling she said she will bring me to a place which will be able to cheer me up. (: how sweet~

sudden urge to eat takoyaki but this caught my eyes instead.
donut ball. (: *nice*

and darling bought me to a mini Hello Kitty fair held in BPP. totally cheered me up. (:
she always knew what to do! *love you*

long forgotten whistle sweet.

darling bought this for me few days before and she kept it inside my Hello Kitty cupboard. and she kept hinting me to open the cupboard, so I found that. (:

splurge. saw that Hello Kitty waterbottle? its super nice n cute! (: adds on to my Hello Kitty collection eh. (:

*************30May2008************
had 8am class. wasn't feeling well the whole day. having headaches and fever. finish class at 12pm.

went to ihp room with Eliz, was trying to sneak in (as we don't have the permission), waiting and waiting, then this guy came and open the door for us. (how nice).

eliz: thanks. (i said thanks in the background ok.)
guy:it's ok. (or is it welcome? i forgot)
ME: eh, can help me close the door?
guy:OK.

how gentlemanly of him. I thought he opened the door because he wanted to go out. but he opened the door specially for us. haha.

well, I find him familiar, after much recalling, I remember him that he was from 1 of my Bio class few semesters back. but I didn't talk to him nor do I know his name. =x

juejue bought this for me. (: *love* and yes, again this cheered me up although my head still hurts.

couldn't tahan anymore, I left at abt 5pm. darling came to bus stop to fetch me. (: being drenched on the way there. Daddy came to fetch us so it saved us to have to walk back home.

showered and fell to sleep all the way to 7.40pm.

p/s. a little gesture means so much~ another thing, I got in TCP though. (:

& the sudden breakdown

sorry for the sudden breakdown. bringing shock to you all.
appreciate it a lot.
(:

Wan Ting, YiXiang, Wei wei, Seika, Shu Ting, Reg.. thanks!

p/s. i guess i need time to get my smile back. to lemme recover. slowly...

i am not happy!

i am not happy and i feel like crying.

i miss my class, a lot a lot

maybe Jay Sean

And Maybe Its True (may be its true) Im caught Up On You
Maybe Theres A Chance That *you're* Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong Its AllIn My Head
Maybe *We're Awaiting* Words We Both Hadnt Said

I'm Always Connected Online
Hooked On Facebook All The Time
Hoping You've Checked My Profile

Just can't help wondering why you play it cool but I'm hopelessly falling for you

p/s. who has this song? send me please!

help me find my happiness!

**spotted jx doing her IGP tutorial in her room. struggling for answers.**



lalala..

actually i'm not so happy as baby went back HK already. so fast eh.

well, went for work last saturday.
PAY OUT!
but less than i can afford a treat for bro. =X (he's gonna kill me)

SUNDAY!
went for church. long time since I last went. everybody was kind of shock to hear me go for service. hahaha. =X I am a good girl from now on.

met up with Nic and all for her special birthday!
had Swensens and Eliz bf came by too.
(:

went to shop around town. nic was the happiest cuz she bought a lot of stufs.
HAHA!!!

well, why doesn't anybody believe that I don't like BLWJ?
-_-

P/s. I only say he is handsome n just feel like seeing him sometimes. does it count for liking him though?

a not-so-happy-me on a regretful day...

8am class today!
I was feeling very uneasy ever since the moment I woke up.
I feel just so not right. with the MC and all. who cares about other things eh?
but but but, GOD is out there to challenge me. ):
He sent him to school today that cause me offguard.
OF ALL, why today?!
trembling and trying to finish the letter, and before I even get to give it out, he board the bus 61. nice try. I can't help but cry (out-loud in my heart).

Daddy came and fetch me because of dreadful MC. thanks daddy! (:

i think i saw Reg's lover's cousin. hohoho...
so he studies in NP hur?
heh-heh. u never know what i'll do next yeah?

photos taken with KYLA n Reg.
(kyla's playing with her facial expressions. totally cute!)




and a nice 1 with my darling REG!!!



P/s. loves CHUCK BASS in gossip girl!

Dinner at Long Beach at Dempsey Road

Lalala.
dinner at Long Beach restaurant.
yummy~

bro went off early so he wasn't in the picture.
(click on the picture to view the photos~)

Lesson finishes at 6. darn the PMS. super embarassing. had to go home to shower before leaving for dinner. reached home at about 12mn. tired~

8am class today.

I guess MC is a girl's enemy. I hate MC!!!!

Dinner at Kuishinbo!

(ya, I know. I kind of changed the dates. but I have no choice. I didn't get the photos in time. so pardon the laziness of me editing them.)

Went for dinner at Kuishinbo Suntec City.
Happy night~ but not as high as I imagined.

We, the happy people~
(click on the photos to view the album)

p/s. i was dead beat, i fell asleep right after my shower. reached home at about 11.30pm.

bye~

happy now! baby will be back for 4 days!

look at my niece! (:
she's coming back tmr! arriving at 3pm plus tmr afternoon.!
ah-yi misses u so much!
(:

i wanna see how tall she has grown. hopefully she don't feel strange with me!
ok, going for kuishinbo tmr.

cya!

not my day.

**spotted JX in NP the square @ 27. doing her lab report.**

suddenly i felt so lonely la. when all i do was sms and all tell me they are not going school.

and people do things without informing me.
I'm always the last to know.
I guess this is what friends are for huh?

p/s. super disappointed.

need a break from my weekly routine. seriously.

hey all.
I guess something that bothers me quite long ago I just couldn't tell what was it. But I just found out today. (is that a good news though?)

I really need a break from my weekly routine. (study, work, staying at home)
I really need a shopping trip!!! (:
I'm not trying to be a spoilt brat here, but I am so stressed up and everything just doesn't seem right. I can't possibly wish for going on a great escape can I? so all I want is to shop!

I'm getting kind of desperate for shopping, seriously. I need a pair of shoes, clothes and some other totally-no-use stuffs u all may say (like Hello Kitty?. AH_HAHAHA)

OK, shopping is not the remedy. But I just don't know what to do. I'm really lagging behind in school, and I have no one to seek for help. Not like I use to have my T04 classmates? (No wonder I miss them so much!). My fear is to have to flunk all my papers, this is the worst nightmare I'll ever have!

I don't know who to approach and that Balaji just dislikes me. ):
I don't know what happen but I kept getting scolded by teachers this semester.
Is it wrong to ask teachers for help? (if not, how come I just get scolded by asking them questions?)

Was working whole day on saturday. work's fine. but I just wish pay out will be asap. I'm wasting money faster than I'm earning them, please! I still owe bro a meal to the steakhouse. cuz he treated me last time. it's my turn now!

GOD, please send me someone to help with my school work! I need someone I can ask for help, friendly and approachable. PLEASE!!!

P/s. xoxo, gossip girl

lots of birthday to conclude.

back back!
(:

have been busy with school work.
lots of things to do, so little time~
well, I'm happy! to a certain extent. haha!

*********BELATED*************
13th May, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YUNYI!
14th May, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EMI!
15th May, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JW!(reg I help u say eh)
*******************************

GONE CASE to my WISP stereotype presentation.
):

nevermind.
Bad days are gonna soon be off~

met up with ah shu for lunch.
disappointed with IMM's Cafe Cartel.
we ordered like 4 times? and our orders are all out of orders. we waited for about 1 hr, and we got nothing! ha-ha-ha!
left and headed for Pepper Lunch~ *yummilicious*

went to meet khoo sisters to lib after saying goodbye to ah shu.
went home about 6pm.
MRT station packed like sardines.
went home and rest. (:

gonna get back to my work now. bye~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DA JIE!!!

P/s. xoxo, gossip girl

long day at school, 8pm

hey hey!
it's near 12mn already and I'm just in here blogging. ah-ha!
just finish watching first episode of Gossip Girl. NICEEE!!!
girls really should watch too. high recommended.
I love the way they dress and the way they speak, it doesn't happen here in SG. it's kinda cool though. but they can be really mean with their words.
yeah~

wasn't having a really great day today.
I was wasting my time today, and for this I felt guilty.
I planned to do my PWA practical but turn out I watched shows and surf the net during my 2hour break. damit.

too much distraction. oh please.
gonna have bio lab tmr. *happy me*
I love lab for poly.
for over a sem already and I'm still wondering what will he look like in labcoat if he had chosen bio with me? ( a thought and it's only a thought, nothing much. i couldn't do anything too)

somehow there will always be people who can't click with others. from the way you dress, the way you talk and the way you look, automatically group yourselves to some people. some people are just meant for each other and some are just meant to be enemies.

for example, if you see a group of people, you will either find that they are of the similar family background, similar clothes, similar speaking accent, etc.
because I believe, rich only chooses the rich, the pretty only chooses the pretty, etc.
true?

well, enough said.
i gotta go catch another episode of gossip girl before I hit my bed.
night darlings!

P/s. I really miss you, I promise I'm never gonna ask from my friends anything about you. just miss.

clumsy Mother's Day!

hello hello!
mummy was tired so she preferred to stay home today.
but I went out with Reg. (:


went Suntec City~
Had Pepper Lunch for lunch. Haha.
duper yummy!
the Kuromitsu Ice Cream is superb!


we went books-browsing today!
I still love books ok?
HA!
went Harris and times bookshop, both doesn't have the book I want in stock.
how sad?
went home feeling rejected.
(ok, not so bad lur)


went BPP to get the bread mummy wants to eat.
and went home.
while walking home, I accidentally slipped and flopped down onto the road.!
chiang-chiang-chiang-chiang.!
luckily only 1 knee landed on the road.
if not I don't know how to walk home.
and that very good Reg was laughing non-stop!
only scratches and not so much bleeding, but bending my knee still hurts.
):


seika said, luckily AN PAN MAN never see.
=X
like he will notice me. (herr)
his eyes grow on top of his head lor.
anyway still, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

Best mummy on earth! (:

mummy love my baby~

Haha!

mummy's in love with my baby- Ryan!

(:

cuz Ryan's damn cute and obedient. *cheers*

she wants to play with him everyday.

Haha.

went school at 4pm.

Haha.

finished by 6pm.

met up with darling and had dinner.

took bus back home.

*****************************

OKOK, I chose IAP. Haha.

WEI WEI! I never choose IHP leh.

Hopefully can get in the IAP ba. (:

I need a new environment. I need to forget the bad memories.

I need to adjust my emotions.

I need time to forget about him.

and from today onwards, I shall stop pestering Mr. An- & that tall guy.

this only grow their hate towards me.

from today onwards, they will slowly fade away n kept back n locked up properly in the deepest of my mind.

Wish me luck.

P/s. I wanna leave this world a happy me.

new love, cute boy n a birthday girl!

yo!

extremely Happy now!

lalala.

meet my new loveee!

and while we were having our K-session. i was singing his song.
I can't help to exclaim he is too cute! (don't know how to describe, just too cuteee!!!)

voila! meet my beloved ah shu ba!

ah shu n ennie:

ennie n me:

elaine, ennie n me:
(too far, so ah shu wants to take another 1.)

dang! blurred! (-_-")
good photography skills u have ah shu. LOL.

elaine was busy singing when we drag her into the photo. haha.
no much photos just these few.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHU TING!!!

cya~

P/s. Matlab still hates me. wei wei advise me to sayang it. Haha. how to?

struggling my way out.

alamak!
what a good way to start my 2pm lesson by arriving school at 11.30am?
HAHA!
went common classroom to find xing n saw jueying n Fiza there too.
n very great, I got a seat right in front of the tall guy.

jueying: ur mian bao chao ren behind eh, then ur another lover in front.
ME: =X. ya lor.
jueying: he very dao.
ME: ya lor. (i knew it!!!, no wonder he always dao me. -_-")
(well, not my lover la. just that i used to find him cute. i think i must be blind.)
LOL.

maybe his height is too over-whelming. ha-ha-ha!
overly obsessed with tall guys.
(bad thing)
cuz my conclusion is that those extremely tall guys have attitude problem.
so true~

******************
rot till 2pm.
I went there so early for Mr. An- and when I reach there he packed his things n went off. great!
*****************

MATLAB!!! I WANNA KILL YOU!!!!!
still the same stupidest problem!
why huh?
why matlab dislike me so so so so so much!!!!?

ok, cool down jia xuan.
i forgot to bring the CD for Fiza. =X
(so sorry)

went for class. tutorial.
having to choose between IAP n IHP is difficult.
cuz I don't see any IAP related to BIO?
(God knows why man)

*******************
bro is so fit now can?!
he is training for his 6-pack.
n it's showing already!
OMG!
Haha.
he like so chao da like that. (burnt)
he go sun-tan n forgot to put sun-screen. now he is like some red chao da man.
oops! ROFL.
******************

finish class at 6pm.

conclusion: I did nothing in school today! ):

*****************
P/s. Sorry, I know this post sound so random. rojak post. heh-heh.

nothing can make me happy again?

why why why??!!

of all, why does MATlab have to do this to me?
WHY!?

why does everybody's matlab is working fine, but me? y does it have to give an error that my Balaji teacher can't solve?
why la?
super fed-up, irritated, angry, sad, disheartening, hurt, etc (all the bad mixed emotions)
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

this got me all sad throughout the whole day. great, not!

feel like killling matlab.

and seeing Mr. An- doesn't make life great either.
I saw that stupid tall boy today.
(so he's in IHP too. herr, same as I guessed, ur results aren't that good either, dao-ed me today right? herr!)

I heard from Seika that when she walked past Mr An- he stared at her. (oh no)
Mr An- ah Mr An-, why do u have to get so petty and rude?
poor Seika~ );

finish class at 6pm.
*yawn*

have to get Matlab done!
off I go~

P/s. Mr Sunshine, please come out!

happy happy friday!

yo~
went for 8am class. thought I was the first to reach, 7.20am. so I sms-ed Seika n all. however, to my 'disappointment', Seika was even ealier. She broke my record!!! HERR!

nevermind then.
eyes was extremely dry and blurry today. *sigh* how come eh.?
classes passes fast enough today. haha.

went Canteen 1 to meet ah shu for lunch.
wei wei n Seika joined us too. (:

met up with darling, I waited for 40minutes! ):
trained to Bugis.
met up with Cheryl (so long since we last met! she went for attachment past 2 months in China. so far away.)

bought this shirt dress. (actually I don't know why I bought it, just because I think checkered shirt is cute!! haha. i saw xing n nic wearing so I think they looked cute! haha. I bought it for fun. don't hit me please. x=)


after bidding Cheryl goodbye, she had to go for CCA practice. darling n I went d.perkins.
they having 20% discount storewide!
haha. time for some pants! love it~

OK, I cannot leave a place like Bugis without purchasing any Hello Kitty Stuff right?
(: so here it is! Sweets from Candy Cabinet with Hello Kitty bag! happy now already!! LOL!

today's shopping visit, totally deficit the purpose of my shopping trip. I wanted to get bag and shoes but I bought none of it. ):

well, I'm happy! hahaha.