kawaiileafy's- Every Little Thing

Parents are hard to forget

2010-04-07T13:41:00.004+08:00

Source: Random Pic, http://www.myspace.com/traku748

Hey everyone! ^ ^ I'm back!
Dad and Mom went over to Hong Kong last Saturday.
Dad will be back next Tuesday (13/4).
Since parents are not in Singapore. My brother will be cooking. Haha.

Although I'm always complaining about my parents, but when they leave us (for a little while) I still miss them a lot!!!
Really miss! I really miss them!

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I shall try translating the above into 한국어. :)

여러분 안녕! ^ ^ 나 돌아 왔어요!

마지막 토요일 엄마 와 아빠 홍콩에 갔어요.
다음주 화요일 아빠 돌아와요. (4월 13일).
부모는 싱가폴에 없어요. 오빠는 우리를 식사 요리해요. 하하.

[don't know how to translate this line]. (i still have to work on it).
진짜 보고싶어요! 정말로 그들을 보고싶어요!

♪ 노래 플레이어: 'Crazy Love' by 동방신기

a simple decision

2010-03-17T12:17:00.000+08:00

Source: Internet; backdated TVXQ!'s photo. Looked seriously happy together.

Sometimes I wonder.. should I move back to blogger?
as in Blogger has more functionality as compared to Wordpress. (#1: I could not post videos from youtube.com on Wordpress). But... Wordpress is more organised than Blogger, somehow. and Wordpress doesn't use HTML, meaning I could use the 'less than' sign without being prompted with an error saying missing closing tag or whatever.
Opinion please.
Should I move back, or should I not?
Mood: Vexed

♪ 노래 플레이어: 'Maybe' by Jay Sean.

M O V E D - OFFICIAL

2009-12-14T14:48:00.003+08:00

Click on the funny image above to go to my new blog. Thanks!

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http://kawaiileafy.wordpress.com/

See you there, sweets!

*NOTE: This blog will not be close down. However, it will be another page for me to post entertainment stuffs (:

Jolly December- The season of giving.

2009-12-04T17:14:00.002+08:00

Ohmygod, Its December already! Hohoho (I'm so proud of my Surname, please)
(my forever repeating line every December)
"It's such a pity that Singapore is situated too near the equator. It doesn't snow."
Although the rain can (somehow, trying to console myself) be a substitute for "snow". As more rain means colder weather (I've always loved the rainy days). I'm so glad the weather is getting cooler by December. (another thing I love about December).
December means CHRISTMAS!
I really feel like attending church service this year (should I?), want to sing christmas carols and pray together. :)

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Wednesday, 02 December 2009

Went for Twilight: The Movie Marathon with Lijie dear at Vivocity. Both of us were so excited (makes us look like little girls waiting for presents. haha.).
Have been anticipating for Twilight Saga: New Moon ever since the poster are out half year ago.
We kept on giggling on the part where Jacob appeared. I don't know why, she kept giggling and urge me to see Jacob, actually she influenced me. Haha. I prefer Jacob in his short hair. (:
No, actually I prefer the Cullen Dad. The handsome doctor, cool. Haha. Dear helped me check out his name, Carlisle Cullen. Haha.

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Thursday, 03 December 2009
Accompanied Jia Lin till 1pm at Bugis and met up with Nicole, Fizah and her adorable Niece. Shopping and Lunchie. (: (now I misses Kyla)

I guess Nicole is on transition in Japan now, if not she'll be halfway to US. Oh god, I miss her already. I will miss her sms-ing and bugging me to meet her up for dinner. HAHA
It's so cool to spend CHRISTMAS with the snow~~~
To Nicole: Please send us email when you get to use the computer!

Met up with Qiu at Far East for shopping. (Note: Sorry I kept postponing till now).
She bought a lot of dresses. It rare to see her in dresses, but she look really pretty in them! *thumbs up*

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and end of this year means the final call for JaeChunSu lawsuit against SM Entertainment. Good news is, the court rule in favour for JaeChunSu.
I hope the lawsuit will end so that TVXQ can attend the annual event on NHK on 30 December 2009.

SM entertainment sucked, big time.

I really hope TVXQ still stays together.

Source:Internet, From DBSK 2009 Desk Calendar.

Dislayed: (Left to right) 김재중, 심창민, 김준수, 박유천, 정윤호

Mood: Jingle bell jingle!

[QU] November 2009

2009-11-30T16:59:00.046+08:00

Sunday, 15 November 2009
Went for Elizabeth's 21st Birthday Celebration.
JX to Eliz: "My dear, you looked so lady is your blue dress, nice~"

After that went Expo for KittyLab!

We get to play games to create our own Kitty ID!
You can choose the Body Size, Horoscope, Ribbons, Food, Best Friend, Clothes, Shoes, Job, Eyes, and Accessories for Hello Kitty!
FUN FUN FUN!!!!!

Don't feel like leaving the Kitty Neighborhood after we completed the games. Its just too bad that photography wasn't allowed. I love, (especially) the Strawberry Hospital where we get to choose the Body Size of Hello Kitty.

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

Watched '2012' with Lin and Shu Ting. Superb Movie, but I kept pulling my own Jacket, lots of violent scenes.

Friday, 20 November 2009:
Met up with Lijie dear to Han Fung for Korean food! Yay! We get to eat 'Maggie' right from the pot! It's Kimchi noodles actually. haha.
Told her the noodles will make us full, but she said she won't feel full. In the end? We couldn't finish it, but it was really delicious! Haha.
Head over to Lot 1 to meet Jia Lin, nice fruit juices.
We got ourselves (Lijie, Jia Lin and me) addicted to the children games in the pasat malam (aka Night Market).
Now I know why my parents forbid us to enter the game zone whenever we visit the Night Market.

Source: Internet.

Displayed: JaeJoong Kim in his bleached-blonde hair and suit.

But I love his black framed glasses and short black hair better. look more decent.

I hope JaeChunSu wins the lawsuit!

Tag Replies ♥

31October2009:

Xiang: u told me u dunno who is Girls Generation =.= RE: Yeah, now I know because my sis played their music in my ears.

7November2009:

Jiani: then it must be the blogger. RE: Yup, it must be.

8November2009:

nic to jia xuan: hai yo. now then u listen to Gee. i knew tat song ages. RE: I wasn't that hot over Korean previously, so this is just recent for me. haha

14November2009:

seika: hey u bought itouch ? RE: Yup, my mp3 spoilt.

a trip to T1

2009-10-25T23:04:00.007+08:00

A busy busy week.

I haven't had time to watch 向大地头球 whole week. ohmy~

how I miss Chia Pong Goon.

Got a new song to recommend- GEE by Girls Generation.

Click on this link to listen: http://121.10.24.75/...583DD477300F4A8DBA36726BF.wma

One Piece anyone? DBSK has a new song 'Share the World' from One Piece Anime. The song is so cute although the MTV is a bit irrelevant to the song. Ha ha.

Now for the one I like! :)

A new song made and done by DBSK members, Yoochun and Jaejoong~

AND Its chosen to be the MAIN SONG for HELLO KITTY's 35th Anniversary!

Jaejoong Jaejoong Jaejoong!

Double Happiness yay!

ENJOY!

Mood: I love DBSK.

Tag Replies ♥

24October2009:
lijie: hi dear! i guess that show is ending soon, and time for me to watch right?! next time at han fung, let order that spicy big big big noodle! my gosh! 1 order this time! RE: Yup! but I not sure whether the show is ending or not, but more or less half way through. and we shall order the spicy noodle soup, I can't wait to meet up with you too dear! (:

ungrateful human, ME

2009-10-19T23:00:00.024+08:00

An apology to make...
"You just wasted 4 hours of my life!"
Imagine how will you feel when you are being thrown this sentence?
after saying this out, I immediately regret and feel extremely terrible.
How ungrateful am I to say this to my parents? If it weren't for them, I wouldn't even breathe and live now.

this time, running couldn't help. tell me how? send a psychologist here please.
i wanted to say Sorry but words couldn't leave my mouth when I'm facing them?
I know they love me so much, they still ask what happened to me despite my harsh words. I'm a really bad person. I ought to kill myself.
:(

why is growing up so hard?

Mood: ungrateful and terrible.

this time emo, not

2009-10-09T23:22:00.037+08:00

it has been too long that I thought I had forgotten your silhoutte. i chose this time to change it and suppresses into my memories (good ones, bad ones). but I chose to keep the good ones. I'm selfish, I want myself to be happy. But it still hurts (so much) to see you doing things that harm your body. this very last memory of you I threw it away while out-running myself. (JiaLin says, "don't be a crazy woman shouting and running at the same time. not as if he can hear what you say. don't care him lah!"

Goodbye cry baby Jia Xuan. (:

Had Korean dinner with Lijie dear at Han Fung! and we ordered so much, again. (although we ordered only 2 dishes but still... I think Koreans have a hearty appetite)
Ordered Bul Go Gi (Beef slices) and Kim Chi Jeon (Kim chi pancake). My first time to try the beef with vegetable wrapped around it. The taste not bad I can say.

Rushed back to watch:

Jung Yunho is so handsome! especially when he wore the tracking suit, it's ohmygod-cool.

Mood: happy and released.

Tag Replies ♥

29September2009:
nic: wa u are so obessed with DBSK.. wow. RE: Yeah, especially Kim Jaejoong!
1October2009:
Xiang: dun read it arh? oh ok. RE: because you said nobody wants to read, aren't you one human too?
3October2009:
seika: from ren nai to lesbian to girl friend. not bad... i get promoted quite fast.next is what? RE: I never label you lesbian eh, I remember calling you twins. Haha! For now I will stick to girlfriend. (:

DBSK MV- Bolero

2009-09-23T12:52:00.000+08:00

You guys have got to watch this! It's really nice, especially when KJJ sings.

Mood: star-strucked

Tag Replies ♥
13September2009
Xiang: ur blog is like so dead already, y u even bother to blog? i very curious RE: then don't read it. (:
18September2009
ferynn: cooool! means i may bump into you at JP or at the interchange! hehehe. takecare! ((: jiayou! RE: yup yup. hopefully we will see each other. take care! :D
19September2009
J I A N I: its is the firefox RE: my IE is the same too.
21September2009
seika: to xiang: then why the hell do you even bother to come view her blog? RE: you go, girlfriend. HA-HA
23September2009
Xiang: oh, cuz its my homepage mah. lol RE: reset it.

what happened to blogger?

2009-09-11T09:11:00.005+08:00

Is it my computer or is it blogger?

How come my create post page looks like this?

anyway, my IBM is sick for a month plus now, till now it hasn't recovered.

*sigh*

a lot had been going on. time passes too fast.

got myself a job and is on 3-month probation.

job is fine, but not the venue. had to visit Boon Lay Interchange everyday except weekends. super crowded.

If only there is a straight train or bus to my workplace.

and I am currently star-struck. (okay, I'm constantly star-struck by Wilber Pan)

but this time I got myself hit by:

Xiah-Micky-Hero-U Know-Max = TVXQ!

Jae Joong! from TVXQ.

Just by looking at him on-screen or magazine makes me light-headed.

Haha!

On another note,

went for Vienne Buffet with LiJie, JueYing, Marvin and YongXiang. Seika and Joseph didn't turn up.

Nice food. :)

I miss NBC-ing!

I really misses them, a lot~~

gonna NBC tomorrow!

YAY!

*kiss goodbye*

Mood: I love Youngwoong JaeJoong

Tag Replies ♥

7August2009

Xiang: like finally no more ppl call me junior ang le. yay! u look like 14 when u tied up ur hair , too young to be true. haha! ~~ Juniort Ang. I think I look rather auntie if I tie up my hair. :(

11August2009

xing: haha. ur niece so funny la. lol. see ya sn. ~ yup she's ADORE-ABLE. (: yup see ya!

Ah yi miss you~

2009-08-06T12:59:00.004+08:00

I am duper happy now! :)
got a call from Kyla Shim~~

Kyla: ah yi ah yi ah yi!!!
ME: Hello!!
(she started laughing non-stop, I don't know why)
Kyla: ah yi you know I'm going to eat Macdonald's now?
ME: oh, is it for dinner?
Kyla: what dinner?! eat Macdonald means to eat dinner?
ME: no la, I was just giving an example.
Kyla: you eat dinner so early?
ME: I thought you eat so early. haha.
Kyla: okay okay I eat macdonald now, byebye!

Kyla: ah yi, I tell you a joke okay?
ME: okay.
Kyla: take Aeroplane from the airport and come to Hongkong and live in the rubbish bin!
ME: ???? huh?
Kyla: It is my joke la silly! very funny right?? hahahahha
ME: ??????
(seriously, I don't think its funny, but its her laughter that makes me laugh more. haha!)

now, for la CLASSIQUE!
this conv was told to me by my sis.

Kyla's Friend: you want to eat from my plate?
Kyla: I don't want! you use your hand and dig your nose, you so dirty eh.
(!!!)
So Kyla's Friend told her mom, and her mom told my sis to tell Kyla not to say mean things to her daughter.
so.. BIL told Kyla.
BIL: next time, when she offers you food, tell her you are full.
Kyla: you mean you want me to tell a lie?
*faints*

tell me she's not adorable and I'll kill you! seriously.
I miss her infant times la!!!

oh ya, she got into a photo shoot for Esprit in Hong Kong.
the sundress she's in is so sweet. :)

Ah yi misses you much!

Mood: happiness long live!

Tag Replies ♥

6August2009:
xing: finally u updated! lol! hw's job coming? ~haha. still waiting for interview! :) happy studying!

Birthday Wishes on Aug 2009 edited

2009-08-04T00:08:00.006+08:00

Shall post a quick one.

went for Wilber Pan's Autograph session on 1 Aug 2009.
Due to his hand injury, he couldn't sign so all of us got to HUG him!
its Ohmygod-I-couldn't-believe-myself hugging him. (:
and I swear I took a really gooooood look at him on stage! because he was talking to his fans before my turn, so I got to stare at him for 30 seconds, up close~~!!!!
URGH! I am super happy~ I'm floating for the rest of the day!
He smell... Nothing, seriously. Although he was sweating a lot, he smell nothing. Not even cologne. (oops, did I really smell him?)

anyway, Thanks, Shu and Li Jie for accompanying to the event!!! :D
went for a little retail therapy with Lijie! :)
I really needed that, life's getting boring n stressful. =P

went to T3 to fetch Ang Yi Xiang from shanghai.
had Popeye for supper(was suppose to be dinner but it's already 11pm, oh well) (=.= my first supper for the whole of 4months. break record!)

went over to Shu's to prepare Xin's 21st Birthday present.

Went top one for Xin's birthday celebration.
was monkeying more than singing.. (waste money, I know. =.=)
so...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Xin and Juwena!

Mood: be careful what you wish for.

Tag Replies ♥

15July2009:
joseph: lol! wa long time nv blog then now blog with so many items! rich huh ~No la, cause I find mine blog quite dead. and I'm very happy with shopping, so I posted them up. :)
17July2009:
seika: rich sia..... burberry. ~Only the perfume leh. not as rich as you. haha
cheryl: when? ~will confirm with you soon. sorry for delaying.
19July2009:
fiza: nvr ask, den u will nvr get ur photos!hahaha ~wah, like that ah. but i'm seldom online. post on facebook la! I will do the tagging! ok? haha
21July2009:
lizzy: Hey! at last you blog! Hows life? ~life still goes on like before. still working my way through. ha
22July2009:
Xiang: talk to u soon, got things wan ask u. ~sure.
3August2009:
viviana: so happy to see you..it was a super short time..haha..surprisingly..hope we can spend more time together again..all the best ~yup! you are so busy, and so coincidental we're in the same lift! :) happy to see you too!

post? shall do.

2009-07-15T11:55:00.001+08:00

shall post, shall post. (:
MIA-ing too long from BlogWorld, I lost touch on how to start. well, forget it. maybe its time to close down this blog. Nothing interesting is going on in my life, I feel its meaningless to blog too. Nobody's reading, anyway. Haha.

went Vivo to celebrate Xing's and Nic's Birthday!
Hort Park and Jewel box!
Photo photos!! not here yet!
Ben & Jerry's at night.

Having been headed to town very often. have been sticking my head inside Burberry Boutique very often, too. Haha. well, had to wait till December, so I can find a very very GOOD reason for me to get my hands on the Burberry Wallet. Haha.

caught Land of the Lost with Shu.

town with Nic.

Esprit.

Arnold Palmer.

had the yummy Chicken Penyet.

town with Jia Na.
bought the crocs! YAY!
Ha haha..

Met up for Seika's Birthday celebration on Friday(10/7).
had Tonkichi.

photo please. (:

town with Lin.
did a-little-tad too much shopping.

bought Bro's prezzie, Bvlgari Pour Homme Soir.

and for me. Burberry for Women. *jumps in joy*

got the Wilber Pan's Album, 007.

Tag Replies ♥

26June2009:
cheryl: meeeeeet! ~Okay!
29June2009:
xing: update! update! hehe. so many activities, never go update ur blog. rotting liao. ~you miss me too much?? we just net not long ago oh. hahahaha. send me photos!! the Hort Park and Jewel box one!!!
30June2009:
nic: ya lor. update leh ~yes yes yup now!

the late calendar

2009-06-13T19:03:00.010+08:00

JUNE is here?!
(Gawd, time is passing so fast!)

20May09
Caught Ramen Girl with Nic and Seika at Iluma FilmGarde. Nice theater, spacious. Haha.

funny show! (:

27May09
Popeye Date with Seika, Jue Ying and Li Jie!
Happy~

28May09
Happy Birthday Nic!

3June09
Caught Monsters Vs. Aliens 3D movie at Cineleisure with Deb!
COOLEST!

4June09
Happy Birthday Xing!

8June09
Happy Birthday Wei Wei!

12June2009
reach home after work to find Mummy's eye in pain. :(
had to head down to SGH's A&E.
the hospital is terribly cold, I couldn't sleep a wink.
waited and waited. till 3am the doctor arrived. I couldn't keep my eyes opened.
till the today reach home at 12noon and I fall dead on the bed. haha!

Tag Replies ♥

3May2009:
huanmin: hahas! dunch be unhappy dear.. life is great man! next time play MJ with u de! i love mj! wahahaha! u must leave np without regret de! how i wish i can graduate wth u.. cus i'm not liking np's life at ALL! NO!!! sooooo tiring squeezing on bus everday zzzz
~ Haha, sayang! I know I will be happy de. Haha. soon~ Just Bus what, still ok de la. (:
13May2009:
MLX: FASTER get from ur frend and upload! wahahaa.. i want to see the....... WOOHOOO~ omg. when it comes to guys.. i'm liddat de.. LOL! faints! ~ Showed you already~!!!!
17May2009:
xing: ha! xuan xuan! u r so cute can? eat too much bread=bread man?! LOL! ten i better stop eating bread for breakfast frm nw onwards! LOL! so hw our date? must tel me when free, so tt we can plan the cele, yea?! yup, agree, fizah alwyas took the longest to pass the photo! ~Haha! serious leh, eat bread gives you bread face. 26june, right? haha. (: ya lor.
MLX: how i wish i can graduae now man! WAHAHAHAHA! ~not so fast, you must ENJOY your stay in NP to the fullest, like me. hehehe. yay!
fiza: eh wat! i have uploaded all the pictures in fb since last wk.. wah liao seh until like diz.. i wanna cry..hahahaha btw i luv bread.. where gt such things as bread face? den i shall call u rice or noodle face? ~Ok ok, chillax! I didn't know I just kept on waiting. haha! serious, now I seldom eat I feel my face not so plump. haha!
18May2009:
MLX: OOPPPSS! the cute one woke u up accidentally! ~haha.. it's alright! (:
22May2009:
nic: y call urself bread face leh? u dun look like it. ~cuz I feel my face look swollen.
24May2009:
Xiang: 应为她的自卑心又在发作了. ~seriously, not.
3June2009:
nic to jia xuan: ur blog seems rather dusty. ~you mean deserted? haha!
4June2009:
Xiang: is it ? must be ur laptop screen dirty when viewing her blog den u tot is her blog dusty ~omg, ROFL!

NP Graduation '09?? (EDITED)

2009-05-16T23:43:00.006+08:00

Seriously, it's not that I ain't excited about the graduation.
~~It's just that I have got only a few photos from some of the people, I need some more from Hafizah!~~
Haha. she has the longest photo I ever wanted since Year 2.
*jumps up in joy*

I am so proud of myself!
Actually I was shaking when I asked the person to have THAT photo taken, with me. (:
(sorry, I had to put a smiley face for him. =x, & I crossed out my face 'cause I find it not-so-nice.)

but I swear he look so smart on that day. (:

okay I shall post some of the Grad photos here. Only group ones though.

and yes, Wei wei, our popeye date! can't wait! (:
lalalala~

and one more thing, I am so fed up with myself in the grad photos, I look like I'm having bread face.

now I truly believe why Joanne Fu keep telling us NOT TO EAT BREAD!!!!
NOW I KNOW, because eat bread = you get yourself a BREAD FACE.
DAMN!

and I only Graduate in NP once, how can I turn back time? *cries*

Mood: angry at myself for eating too much bread for breakfast. eek!

P/S. TAGs will be replied ASAP. thanks~~~

i want to live without regrets

2009-05-03T20:06:00.003+08:00

some things are better to be said, although it'll hurt very badly still, unhappiness will short live itself. rather than holding on to your words, unsaid and feeling miserable.

and I know I did something that although I'm feeling terrible now, I know I will leave NP without regret.

on a lighter note,
went for Shu's BBQ par, but the BBQ pit is a total letdown.
You see, its all heat and electric operated, however its coin operated too.
We have to insert coins every half hour or less to keep it heated.
terrible, we waited and inserted lots of coins into the slot but turns out its a faulty pit.
2 hours there, nothing was being cooked, wasted!

we brought back all the food to her home and cooked it.
but her BIRTHDAY CAKE was delicious. *yum yum*

stayed overnight at her home. played mahjong. and I always lose. *screams in agony*

today, rot at her apartment for the whole morning.
damn happy to see Mommy and Sis! (:
went BPP to get my contact lens.

Mood: i think i should move on.

the Graduation attire

2009-04-29T23:55:00.005+08:00

me: can I change the size of the attire?
that person: yours is the smallest
me: got even smaller one, right?
that person: that one is limited
me: really cannot ah?
that person: this size can one la

very fed up with that person. 'Cause he's not the one wearing it! I am very short already! tell me to wear a long robe, make me look even shorter la, idiot.
and he is just trying to get me off so he kept asking me to sign that paper.
damn him. super irritated by his service.

met Nic at eVenture.
had lunch together with RX, WT, Nic, Eliz and Eliz's BF.
met Wei, JY n JX at NP bus stop. says coincidence.
(:
then head over to hospital with Mummy.
had to wear the mask, and I look so funny and suffocated. ( don't get me wrong, I appreciate that I was given the mask to prevent Swine Flu, okay?)
I cannot believe SGH's Kopitiam sells yummy-licious Choc Sundae!

head over to Xin's house and Westmall after that.
bought Shu's gift.
Xin's lil' Sis, she broke 2 items from Precious Thots.
Xin had to pay for her, I can see steam rising above her head.
Seriously if its me, I will scream at my sis, while she can control without scolding her a word. oh man. she really loves her sis, I can tell. She say she can't bear to scold her sis, that's very sweet. (:

on other hand, I always fight with my sis, but she's always the one riding on top of me. making me feel like I'm HER younger sister. she always have the power to make me feel guilty and make me forgive her at the same time. GOD, me n Xin both are big sis, but she can tame her sis, why can't I?
maybe I spoilt my sis too much. *sigh*

BBQ par this Saturday!
Slumber Par at Shu's house after BBQ.
(:

working tmr, can't wait!
and I'm not a workaholic. fingers-crossed.

Starbuck's Javachip Frappacino w/o Whipped Cream is lurve~

Tag Replies ♥

20 April 2009:
s0t0ng: gal... c'me on i be still nearby... we still can meet out for dinner, shopping, tok **** etc... not say I be off to overseas... ~yup yup, MANICURES!
21 April 2009:
Xiang: are u angry wif me ? ~not anymore.
twinnyyy: haha im happy to see you tooooo ~HAHA. xoxo
23 April 2009:
lijie: huggsss! finding out the culprit of unhappiness and get rid of it! I manage to get rid almost all of it. dont turn away ur smiles too for they are precious, at least to me! ~wei wei! thanks! lovess
24 April 2009:
s0t0ng: gal... u ok? u knw I'll be there for u anytime of the day... give me a ring anytime u nid me ok?everything is going to be alright will nt solve anything bt it helps to allow u to settle down and tink ~really glad to hear that! u really helped me a lot. take my fight with my sis for example! thanks a lot! huggss
25 April 2009:
ferynn: hey! cheeeeeeeeer up! hope you're doing fine. ~yup yup, thanks!!!! (:

New Song:
可不可以爱我 by 卢学睿

每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛
怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我
可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过

if tears could wash away every thing

2009-04-21T23:06:00.002+08:00

JX: I think I need a stone that symbolizes Happiness.
WE: Why? You don't feel loved?
JX: I have, family, friends but I'm miserable.
WE: everybody feels that somehow.

I'm really tired of pretending, but somehow the effective antidote doesn't help this time.
This time, crying doesn't solve my unhappiness.

why is my sister so not understanding?
I have my problems, so I could not attend to hers, and she is angry at me.

and she can turn to me.
but who can I turn to this time?

I'm writing a letter, a letter with no address.
Nobody to address to.
This is how sad I am, right now.

I have fun colleagues to surround me in the day, what about the night?
who is there to wipe my tears away?
I keep telling myself, "everything is going to be alright." but how does it solve anything?

God, I need you.
and I really wish for 1 thing, HAPPINESS.

Mood: unhappiness

I knew too well

2009-04-20T23:28:00.004+08:00

Is my moodiness that obvious?
Firstly, I had diarrhoea once I reach NBC.
Secondly, accidentally hit the pivot onto my inner ankle.
Thirdly, got cut by Vanguard Sheet! (JN: Vanguard Sheet? U got cut by Vanguard Sheet? the least possible thing for u to get cut by? Poor thing.) OUCH!

Bad day, I should say. But everything got OK once Joanne Fu bought me Kinder Joy! (:
smells love!
and I got to eat my Wheat Tofu.
yay~

Joanna Soh helped me bought a new Book! yay!

I love you and you love me!

17 April 09
Survived through the tormenting SMU interview.
got shot down at the 1st part, "Share your views on the article."
Nice one.
Went for T03 Class Gathering. Happy to see Wei Wei, JueYing n Seika! (:

18 April 09
Went for work.
Had lunch with Joanna Soh! (:

19 April 09
went out with Xiao Mei!
I think my Xiao Mei is the cutest!
although she can get annoying sometimes.
I realised once I started working, I missed spending time out with her, a lot!
She treated me Gelare Ice Cream Cone!

she kept pestering me to take photos with her.
out of all I love this one the most! (:

Mood: cantankerous

Prince of Tennis Movie

2009-04-19T21:04:00.008+08:00

1 word- NICE!

make it 2- DAMN NICE!

go Echizen Ryoma! go go Echizen Ryoma.

Kanata Hongo, so cute~~

Mood: happy?

Tag Replies ♥

8 Apr 09:

Xiang: i wan watch all these movies lah, haiz sad. here dun have ~ poor thing, maybe you can watch it on some online website? =x

9 Apr 09:

s0t0ng: gal dun miss me too much bad for health de... hehe... u wan vodka? we can always meet up for a drink or two... no nid scared can't go hme cos there's always the taxi! wahahaha ~ haha, yay! must meet up soon for a drink, cuz time passes very fast soon, you'll be moving away! :(

14 Apr 09:

huanmin: i saw my face. i soooooooooooo _ _ _ no need say u also know right? YAY! i also very _ _ _ _ ~ Fill in the blanks? correct got prize? Ans: Shy and Cute? always the case la.

16 Apr 09:

twinnyyy: hello twinnyyyy ~ Haha, you seika?

Full update

2009-04-08T11:05:00.007+08:00

Okay, so today's my OFF day. So I shall blog a really nice post. (Full post, that is). (:

31 Mar 09
Went to Esplanade Roof Top terrace for night picnic with girlfriends.
Super nice because its quite windy over there and we get to have the whole compound to ourselves as we're talking too loudly, every couple just couldn't stand out noise and went off. woohoo, is this cool or what? Right, my ladies? Ha-ha-ha.

Went to Starbucks to chillax.
The whole night our topic revolved around marriages and pregnancy. We got terribly excited. Haha, Fiza wasn't with us though. -__-

1 Apr 09
It's April already? =O

Caught Hotel for Dogs with Xin and Shu.
Cute show. But I really cannot stand dogs. I kind of got scared during the movie, cuz the amount of dogs in the show is a lot! Too many dogs!
Had Pizza Hut for lunch. (:
Met Wei Wei at JP's NTUC Extra. haha. so coincidental! (:

2 Apr 09

Caught Confessions of a Shopaholic with Nic and QH.
I swear this show is damn nice. Especially the scene where the male lead n female dance. The whole theater burst out laughing.

I am, I'm too fabu-lous
I'm so, fierce that it's so nuts
I live, to be model thin
Dress me, I'm your manne-quin

J'adore Vivienne, habillez-moi Gucci, Fendi, et Prada. Valentino, Armani too. Merde I love them Jimmy Choo.

Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be (2x)

Ohhh Ohhh
La La La
We love designer

I need, some new stile-ttos
Can't walk, down the street in those
You are, who you wear it's true
A girl's just as hot as the shoes she choose

J'adore Weitzman, habillez-moi Louis, Dolce Gabbana, Alexander McQueen, eh ou. Merde I love those Manolo

Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be (2x)

Ohhh Ohhh
La La La
We love designer (2x)

Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be (4x)

3 Apr 09
Joanne's Birthday celebration at NBC.
Ha! She was so calm la, she burst into the office without us ready, caught us off guard. and thus, the surprise no more. Boo.
Looks like the surprise is for us.
The cake is yummilicious.
Gotta get the photos from Cece soon!

4 Apr 09
Weng Chen's Birthday celebration at NBC.

2 birthday cakes in a row, nice!
This one is fun, cuz she really was shocked and stood at the doorway, it took her about 1 minute to realize what we're doing. The facial expression is really cooool. HAHA

5 Apr 09
HuanMin's Birthday Celebration at The Warren.

Went off to her place straight after work. Luckily there are still food for me. (:
Happy Birthday MLX!
Thanks for that Black Berry you drew. Ha!

Mood: happy, fully packed schedule. (:

Tag Replies ♥

30 Mar 09:
Xiang: wah so good , enjoying urself in sg eh . . ~ Yeah. At least I can relax. I kept working non-stop. Haha.
[lin]: ahla, my blogging where got funny???? ~ Got la you describe your school hall. very funny ma. hahaha
1 Apr 09:
nic: yeah great chilling out wif u n liz last friday..i also had fun yesterdae,haha ~ ME TOO! loves!
lijie: we are fated to meet up! ~ yes, wei wei. haha. you got scolded by your mummy cuz u want to beat me. hahahaha! i heard! lalala.
2 Apr 09:
seika: zzzz, girl ah, must bring NRIC one or passport. student pass useless to them. ~ eh, my twin sister. haha ya lor. now I know le. haha!
xing: Update! Update! . dun be bad girl hur, update at one goes hor! *chuckles* ~ updated le! i really update all at once. oops! =X i update all in one post. haha!
Xiang: 你的博客里的歌很好听！没有想到你会听这种音乐的！~ haha. stop using chinese i cant type chinese in MSN, u keep typing it in chinese. grrr... ya poker face damn nice one! hahaha.
7 Apr 09:
jiaxuan: j, you should set the sound to off to begin with and let ppl turn it on - else it can be very anoying. great website btw, very funky!~ thanks! you got the same name as me? haha. cool. eh.. i think the link was spoilt therefore you cant turn off the music. i took it off already. (: thanks for the comment!

2009-04-07T01:02:00.005+08:00

Huanmin is so cute, cuz I posted my status that I wanted a Blackberry. She drew me a Berry that is Black in colour. Haha!

will update during my OFF day.

I miss Shu.
She started working already.

I miss Deb.
Long time never see her.

I miss Yi Xiang.
He's in Shanghai, suffering. =X

I think I need a booze. get me vodka. haha.

Mood: mixed up.

The Lychee Incident

2009-03-27T23:46:00.005+08:00

It's kind of sad to be kicked out of the BTT exam hall.
Embarrassing, more like.
I never thought of bringing my NRIC, my bad.

Had to wait till 11 May 2009 for my BTT, again.

Went to slack and headed to Cityhall to meet Eliz n Nic. (a pity that Xing, Ting n Fiz couldn't make it)
Was happily taking photo when Nic said, "why somebody drink Lychee?"
Eliz n me couldn't help but burst out laughing. cuz we're eating the Lychee sweets. Ohmy~

Had bitter chocolate fudge cake, yum.
It's great to meet out to chillax. (:

Mood: happy-ness

Tag Replies ♥

23 Mar 09:
xing: joanna? tt one i noe? she studying nw? o.0 night sch? ~ eh.. Joanna Soh? If that's the one you know. She's studying at MDIS (part-time) (:
24 Mar 09:
Xiang: Hi. Guess where am i ~ where could you possibly be? Shang Hai of course. Ha
cheryl: great meeting u ytd! ~ me, too! (: and I don't sleep while walking. haha!
jueying: see you tmr love! ♥ ~yep, happy to see you too! <3
28 Mar 09:
MLX: so, how did u do for your theory?:) ~ I flunk it. cuz I never even get to take the test itself. :S

picnic- not

2009-03-25T23:56:00.001+08:00

Met up with JY n LJ for dinner.
was supposed to go for Picnic, in the end canceled.

Happy chatting at Esplanade.
(:

Mood: relaxing

Chocolate Prata

2009-03-22T23:08:00.004+08:00

Qiu Hua bought Chocolate Prata, yummy~
Today at NBC is slack day.
Long time no see Joanna, poor her, mugging for Tuesday's paper. still has to work.
Good Luck.

She: good-looking freshbox shop assistant, ♥
Me: too bad, he's attached.
She: I think he WAS once head over heels for Joanne.
Me: too bad, he lost to a 77th Street Shop Assistant.
orh-B good. I heard he's a flirt.

Combine Class gathering on 10 April. (:
finally. last time before Graduation Day.
Yay~

Mood: slacker

Tag Replies ♥

21 Mar 09:
Xiang> yes.
lijie> Yay! really thanks! (: loves
fiza> ha! cuz' I've finished work for that day. =X

it doesn't matter anymore?

2009-03-20T15:25:00.006+08:00

things spinning in my head.
I guess I never think enough.
I cannot get over things. I CANNOT, and I don't know why.

But I have to thank wei wei. (:
she'll accompany me to the airport, very much appreciated.
Because if I never send Yi Xiang (for once, I wrote your name. be honored) off, I will feel bad.

Graduation Ceremony in May.
The very last day I will get together with my class.
Okay, its goodbye Ngee Ann and Hello what-ever-your-name-is life.
-___-"

3 years of Poly, just ended like that?
It's like its just yesterday that I've been rambling about what is going to happen in my Poly life after my Secondary School life, and now? Graduation.

Tears never fails to drop within these 3 years.
Good ones, bad ones.
I guess I'll get over it.
I never regret stepping into NP, seriously.
I met great friends! (:
Great teachers, (okay somehow this isn't very true).
and I'm gonna miss Block 31, and 27! (awwww...)
I'm gonna miss T04 and Bio Class.

I AM SO GONNA MISS all of you, dearies!

Mood: poker face

Tag Replies ♥

10 Mar 09:
Xiang> Okay, I wrote your name out, read it. (:
11 Mar 09:
Xing> Okay, thanks! Huggsss. (: love you too. yup the sentences is very meaningful!
12 Mar 09:
Seika> Of course! unless you aren't my friend! divorce? that won't be necessary. haha
Xiang> anyhow arh u.. >={
Xing> haha, when we're in 3rd yr Bio Class. oops! =X
13 Mar 09:
Xiang> this is getting a little out of hand ah.. haha.

I want to be brave.

2009-03-09T22:22:00.004+08:00

XING, seeeee I blog le!~

I am a very good girl for the past few weeks.
Not the going out every day part, though.
I swallowed all my tears. Please say I'm brave.
I promised and I did it!
(:

Junior Ang is going off SH soon.
I'm happy for him, seriously.
But, hey Jr. Ang, what makes you think I'll stop contacting you after you are off to SH?
>={
the reason I don't want to pester you cause I will feel bad.
I'm afraid I will add weight to your burden.
Please know that I will share with u all my happiness.
When I share the bad ones, it only means it had come to a stage to where I can no longer handle.
I wish you well in SH.
Jia You!

Weng Chen told me a lot of things.
I feel I know how to deal with tears because of all her advices.
Thanks.
She encouraged me a lot, tell me to let go and accept.
Cuz she's suffering the same thing as I am.
Thank God for sending me this Angel. (:
I wish she and her BF can get together ASAP. (:

P/s. I love my friends!

Mood: the mature one

Tag Replies ♥

8Mar09:
Cheryl> Ok, I asked u out. note it down on your calendar. that time we went singing.
9Mar09:
the cute one> -___-"

PROM! EDITED

2009-03-04T23:06:00.006+08:00

OKAY, 1 word for PROM!

FUN!!!!!

TERRIBLY FUN!!!!

EXTREMELY FUN.

DAMN, I want to go again!

Mood: FUNNNNNN

Tag Replies ♥

18 Feb 09:
Seika> Haha. Yup, I know le. thanks!
19 Feb 09:
Lijie> Ya lor. u so love benefit!
22 Feb 09:
s0t0ng> haha. well, i am too. -__-"
joseph> I really don't know what to do also. *sigh*
24 Feb 09:
Xing> Haha! yup, now u can enjoy! yay~
26 Feb 09:
Xiang> Ok la, now u can relax a bit le, before u fly off!
5 Mar 09:
Xing> Yups, prom de. updated!
6 Mar 09:
Xing> Yups. u caught me. =X

Prom is draining all my energy

2009-02-27T23:34:00.001+08:00

CONGRATS to my dearies for having their exams finished!
YAY!

"What's so special about Prom, anyway?"

Well well, Prom-shopping is really draining my energy away.
Seems like we couldn't get something we really really really like.

Dress-hunting is the hardest part I should say.
HARDEST.
It's either you like it, suits you, or NOT.
a lot of factors.

I'm kicking up a big fuss on this because I cannot understand myself.
why would I make myself so fed-up when I can just back out?
Paranoia

=.=

Anyway, I'm left with Heels and Clutch.
Thanks mummy for buying me a NICEeee bra!
:)

I think I really need a personal shopper.

till then~

Mood: tired, but happy. (:

out with Xin n Shu

2009-02-25T23:25:00.003+08:00

spend a whole day out with X n S. :D

went over to hand the key at NBC before meeting them.
This is funny:
S called the night before to warn us, "Don't be late. 10.30am at Bugis. Latest 10.45am"
well well, guess what? S hasn't met X in BB after 10.30am?
HA-HA!

Went Top One. S is so low that day we couldn't made her high.
left X n me monkeying and jumping around on the sofa.

went Vivo to change my dress.
Thanks to X, for pestering the salesgirl to allow me change the size.
<3 style="font-style: italic;">Satay sauce (I'm gonna barf because I cannot stand Satay smell)
Fancy C.Jr to call it CHILLI when its SATAY!

was discussing about holding a slumber party. (oh, cool!)
but the both of them started bickering as where to hold it.
both of them wanted to be at their house.
oh well, I wouldn't mind any one as long as it isn't my home. heh-heh.

Mood: happy, reunion. (:

The sentosa trip

2009-02-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

Sunday night (15 feb 09) was discussing with Deb where to go the following day.
and The next day (16 feb 09) there we are, at- Sentosa!
VERRRY FUNN cuz there is so little people. haha!
Sun tan, but not very tan. HA.

we bought wine to realize we need the wine opener. WASTED!

the bears world

Ok, a tortoise patch grass. (: I mean 2 tortoises.. one small one big.

*

went on Dragon Trail

very wasted cause the place is up for renovation. so the dragons cannot be seen, and lots of cut down trees and small plants lying on the path. well, go there next time soon!

*

then to 4D Magix.
watch the pirates show. with the water sprinkling and the motion effects, FUN. haha, and the thing seems like really coming to life. so near but we couldn't catch it. haha.

lastly, Song of the Sea. I swear the effects is damn nice! oscar~

went Food Republic and Daiso at Vivo.
home sweet home.
tried but nice. (:

Mood: happy.

傻瓜

2009-02-21T02:18:00.002+08:00

傻瓜我们都一样被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样却又再一次受伤
傻瓜我们都一样受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价代价只是一句傻瓜

傻瓜也许单纯得多爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

P/s. If nothing goes right, go left.

BBDC1

2009-02-17T23:05:00.003+08:00

POW!

immediately I was bombed with questions.
Private or School?
Auto or Manual?

ohmygod.

I thought I was there to only take the Basic Theory Test.
nobody tell me I had to make decisions.
man.
how i dread driving.

I don't know why i chose to apply for it either.

got a call from Wei Wei to go for lunch with Fuji at Bugis.
lazy to go home, I went there straight to meet Wei at JE mrt station.
with Slippers, shorts and t-shirt.
very last-minute.

had baked rice at Bugis Street Hong Kong Cafe at level 2.

walked over to Raffles City.
bought Bubble Tea only to realize after almost finishing our drinks, my drink was mixed up with Seika's. Haha. classic.
both of us found our drinks weird, but none of us commented about it. Ha.

Robinson the next.
I swear Wei's really crazy over Benefit.
but the counter person really have attitude problem.
so what, we can always go online~
(:

Applied for NUS.
stuck at the Essay for 1 hour plus.
nice one. HAH!
UNIVERSITY... *sigh*

P/s. suddenly i miss taking 184 with Anpanman. damn

Mood: all mixed up.

Tag Replies ♥

15 Feb 09:
Xing> Yeah~ love you all. (: thanks for visiting me on V day. :D

16 Feb 09:
CH> (: yups. thanks!!! :D
nadiah> updated. relinked. :) yeah, call me. heard Salwa says you are super busy!

till then!

yesterday happy, today not

2009-02-15T14:42:00.002+08:00

urgh.

as promised I hit that Delete button in FB.

I swear that is the longest moment ever.
as if my life was on a slow playback. I saw you disappearing from my friend list right before my eyes.
and I knew what was the feeling of regret.

goodbye A... this time no turning back.
and let my tears flow again please.

and God, if you still love me. I need you.

Mood: happiness is short

The un-Usual V day.

2009-02-14T14:26:00.004+08:00

As usual, I went dating with my work.

I found this once I opened my locker before work.
Sweet~
Thanks Winnie Chew~ ♥

Sandy too! ♥

Weng Cheng is sooo pretty now! she went to had her hair permed.!
I guess the magical power of LOVE is really that great!
her boyfriend drove from M'asia over to here just to bring her for dinner! sweet!

Joanna Soh too. Her boyfriend sent tulips to work.
it's ohmygawd!
Sugar! (:

Wan Ting, Rui Xing and Jue Ying came down to find me during work. Ha. caught me off guard. oops =X

and thanks JUEYING for sending me this flower. (:
LOVES!♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

So remind me again how do you spell SWEET?

Mood: sweet

Tag Replies ♥

10 Feb 09:
Xiang> Yup, I will thanks! (:
15 Feb 09:
CH> ooh. Ok, but this phone is really hard to use. Haha.

AUSTWINE @ Farm Mart

2009-02-13T23:00:00.003+08:00

went to a cafe at Farm Mart.
nice place.

I guess its because of that Red Wine we had, I became all emo.
-___-"

Well, felt much better to let tears flow, and luckily the place isn't well lit.
Thanks for being there with me all while.

loves

ruixing was very high. HA!
Happy Single Club.
=X

Mood: drunk

gossip girl season 1. completed. edited

2009-02-12T11:05:00.000+08:00

finally finished the first season of Gossip Girl.

Hasn't really been feeling the right mood for this whole week.
Had dinner with Eliz on Wednesday night. The Soup Spoon~

Went NTU with Cheryl today afternoon.
Nice environment.
Scarily big campus.
Well, more vibrant than NUS I can say. (:
so I guess its really time for me to apply for my Uni anytime soon.

Uni, sounds scary to me.
-.-

wish me luck.

Mood: not-so-good

lifeless

2009-02-09T22:23:00.003+08:00

okay
this is boring.

you,
haven't been updating your blog.

and I've got nothing to read.

now I'm back to Gossip Girl,
which load super slow?

How?
I don't know.

Nothing,
can cheer me?

Maybe,
you can.

I wanna feel loved too.
But how?

I've decided to,
Delete you.

Maybe this,
could help?

Mood: random, and kill me please. =X

jiaxuan is seriously sick.

2009-02-09T12:38:00.004+08:00

ever since that Friday night out with Nic.
Felt super cold on the train ride back home.
Showered and my fever went up.
I sweat like hell.
and I swear I have never popped so much Paracetamol in my whole life in a day, 3 that is.
I thought I'll be fine after all that medicine taken.
However on my way to work on Saturday, I broke out in cold sweat and landed with a bump on the staircase.
The whole world went black and I could hear nothing.
Luckily Mummy was beside me and she brought me back home.
I thought I was gonna be alright after my Saturday night rest.

However,
I broke out in cold sweat in the middle of the night. and went toilet 3 times.
I went out with Cheryl on Sunday afternoon.
Totally felt sick throughout the whole of Fiza's Birthday party.
Till this morning I still felt so sick I could hardly move legs.

Is this going to end soon?

Mood: SICK.

Tag Replies ♥
6 Feb 09:
MLX> HA, ok sure. gonna get that soon. hope they still have the pink in stock. :)
7 Feb 09:
Xiang> Hmmm, decided to threw that voucher away and change to Starhub instead.
jueying> :) yeah~ Samsung. Hehe.
9 Feb 09:
CH> Haha.. yep, I wanna get that too! (: but you have to pay if u use the wifi function, right?

This, or that?

2009-02-06T12:30:00.007+08:00

J: Is this Jia Xuan?
ME: Ya.
J: why you never come to work?!
ME: I got to prepare my presentation.
J: eeyer.. confirm prepare till very lousy right?
ME: (-.-), so bad ah u.
J: cause' its u who made it that made it ugly. hahaha.
ME: hah-nah.
J: I so long never see you eh.
ME: CNY u so quickly hop back home, i also never see you.
J: herr! i change hp number.
ME: okay..
J: u don't want to take it down meh?
ME: i go get paper n pen, u wait
J: haiyer.. don't lose this number hor!
ME: yar lah.
J: i become prettier le eh.
ME: really?
J: ya lor. u never come so u cannot see. (=P)
ME: okay, next sat i go see u.
J: herr! u better do ur presentation nicely hor. i hang up the phone liao. byebye!
ME: bye.

J called back again and told me she gave me the wrong number. (alamak)

HA!
Well, I think I need to blog. Because I see my friend's blog, all with the Kuishin Bo pics, so I wanna blog too! (heh-heh)

the group photo!

the girls group photo.

Decided to go Arcade. Randomly we saw this Neoprint machine inside so we drag the boys to take it with us. FUN!
and super funny.

too squeezy... so the girls decided to take again. haha!

okay, so we ended our gathering with this

5feb:
went NUS with school.
Nice school, NUS that is.
But the criteria is too high lah!
OHMYGOD.

Fuji was there to make me laugh non-stop. haha! nice one.

after that trip, went IMM with Wei Wei, I tempt her into buying that LG Ice-Cream phone. haha. oops! =X but who can resists? it's darn pretty!
very paranoid, 2 phones to choose, 2 people to please. Oh well, bad move.

So, THIS

OR

THIS?

ARGH. of cuz, that Samsung's functions is better.. but the price also good ah! *sigh*
bro says, SAMSUNG.

Mood: all mixed up!

Tag Replies ♥
4 feb 09:
Xiang> Junior Ang. good eh! (:
5 feb 09:
Seika> PINK is pretty! u n jy anti-pink one.

offically over, and happy!

2009-02-03T21:48:00.006+08:00

(:

Sunday went over to Wei's house.
FUN!
played mahjong.

Monday... 2nd Feb
Was sweating and feeling nervous the whole afternoon.
Viva.. Viva.. Viva..
Phew and it's finally over!
(:

Thanks wei wei for accompany me throughout the whole session.
Thanks Junior Ang for your Laptop! (really I couldn't thank you enough because you never know how much Viva means to me!)

went to Bukit Timah's Han Fung to have Korean food. YUMMY~
P.s. now I know the feeling of wearing a vest. duper HOT! I wonder how Bryan is able to wear that to school. Pro.

Tuesday... 3Feb
Went back to school (told you I love school!), to accompany Wei wei for her practice for Viva. Went over to IT help desk to get my laptop fixed. My poor bluetooth still couldn't work. Damn.

Had Kaki Fuyong with Wei wei today! YUMMY~ (:

Baby's flew back to Hong Kong again. :(

Went to make a new pair of spectacle, after 2years.. HA!
Guess this time what color is it?
PINK la.. of course.
I love pink, but strangely I haven't made any specs in pink before. HA!
Pretty~
Can't wait to collect it next Monday.. wooHoo!

Kuishinbo tomorrow~

P/s. I'm officially done with Poly. I will miss poly life ever! loves!

Tag Replies ♥
28 Jan 09:
Xiang> Ok, understood. :)
CH> Happy CNY too! :)

Happy CNY 2009!

2009-01-27T23:09:00.006+08:00

FUN! utterly fun.

DAY 1
CNY never fails to cheer me up yo!
This year lots of photo taking.
First time, I took public transport this year.
totally different experience.
I can feel the CNY ambiance.

but somehow, I feel CNY slowly dies down.. not as hyper as it used to be when I was young.
We use to play in the corridors, throwing water-bombs, bullets that goes, "piak" when u threw them on the floor, play hide-and-seek, tug-o-war, catch, sing... etc.
we can even be fast friends with neighboring kids of my aunt's and uncle's house.

now all we do is sits on the couch chatting surface topics.
kind of sad though.
bring me back those happy moments...

but baby's back which makes everything G-R-E-A-T!

went to have dinner. LOW HEY!
Reunion dinner...
Oh ya, reminds me of another childhood memories.
We used to gather at 1 uncle's house to have reunion dinner.
now we have it at our separate homes.
even scattered, right? *sigh*

DAY 2
went Grandma house.
quiet........
I guess tomorrow's the real big day. (:
everybody goes there on the 3rd day. but, I always couldn't go. sad right?
went to Orchard to roam with Lin.
Nothing~
So unlike Orchard. HA!

OK, first 2 days just ended.
anyways, HAPPY CNY!!!!
bye loves!

Tag Replies ♥
19 jan 09: Xiang> what so long?
20 jan 09: JiaNi> THANKS!! (:
25 jan 09: Cheryl> Yup I will, after 2nd Feb, lookout for my sms!
26 jan 09: Huanmin> wah! so mean eh u!!! how can? Haha!

2009-01-21T21:38:00.002+08:00

went back to school to submit report.
went to the new canteen, nice!
so unlike Ngee Ann. (oops!)

Ok, I'm elated because I get to take 184, walk in the school ground.. everything about going back to school make me feel, SAFE. (:

but now, thinking that I have to go back to work tomorrow made me kind of low.
back to that pile of endless work.
but once I end my attachment, meaning I have to go for Viva. which is another dread.

I cannot enjoy myself during CNY. ):
Grrr....
Entertain me, please?

I read your blog, sad posts, affect my mood too. you sad = I'm sad.
you never know your mood can affect me that much, do you?
Good night, Aye.

P/s. Baby's touching down tmr! lovesssss!

Wan Ting's birthday celebration

2009-01-19T00:30:00.002+08:00

I guess after MIA-ing for so long, I shall blog a short one.
After weeks of not-blogging, I've cleaned up my heart. This time it's true. I truly want to forget you. Cause' consoling myself everyday that one day you'll notice me, it's worth the wait, cut a lot deeper into me. I have no more strength to carry on, while carrying my thoughts of you to live, to breathe and to work my life everyday is meaningless.

3years ago, CNY period, I saw you at Orchard's Wisma. and I think you're the one. Many things, many incidents happened, good ones, bad ones. After the 3rd year, CNY period, I've truly determined, although this is going to take ages, I know I will succeed. People and God, give me courage and support, maybe?

*******************************************

Went for Wan Ting's birthday celebration, big day, 21st birthday. (:
my friend has grown up. soon it'll be my turn. (=.=)

when photo's up I'll post. (:

went Shopping with Nic and Lin, saw PMC.
and it's OHMYGOD, do you remember PMC?
It's PMC, argh.
HA-HA-HA.
you know.. that Scouts.
Happy la, haven't seen him for ages.
He should have finish JC by now...
As usual, charming. (:

TAG REPLIES
26 dec 08>
CH: Merry X'mas too! ( i know I'm slow!)
28 dec 08>
Xing: Yup, thanks love! (: the choco is damn nice!
CH: thanks!! (:
Xiang: thanks! and thanks for the present!
29 dec 08>
jueying: ya lor super nice one!
30 dec 08>
fiza: hahaha! ya, love you too!
31 dec 08>
Nic: (:
3 jan>
Xiang: you also go count ah.. haha!
11 jan>
David Santos: ??
15 jan:
zeroone: Haha... of course, its Chiang ma. easy la. FB show so obvious. haha

gotta go now.
cya lovelies~
P/s. class gathering (:

Special Thanks! ♥

2008-12-28T12:51:00.006+08:00

Special Thanks to,
(importance is not in order)
Wong Shu Ting
Choo Mei Xia
Elaine Chan
Hafizah
Nicole Seet
Ng Yin Elizabeth
Khoo Rui Xing
Khoo Wan Ting
Seika Fujihara
Lai Zhen Wei (wei wei!)
Joanne Fu (My Kiwi)
Joanne Fu's Boyfriend (i don't know his real name.)
Joanna Soh (huai ren!)
See Weng Chen
Sandy See (my super nice supervisor!)
Cecelia Chai
Lok Wan Er
Sabrina Lee
Darling JL
Chang JueYing
Ang Yi Xiang
Debbie Liew
Carmen Wong
Li Huan Min (mlx)
Lee JiaXin
Tan Jia Na
Cheryl Hong
Lit Jun Hao
Joanna Ho ( Da Jie)
Yvonne Ho (Er Jie)
Isabel Wong
Darren Lau Tze Hao
Yu Chuang
Nellie Tan
Russell Sim
Ivy Tan
Chiang Ling Yi
Winnie Chew
Chun Hao
Kimberly
Xian Hui

All of your wishes gets me all heart-warming.
I don't think I've missed out anyone, did I?

♥

last day of my teen days

2008-12-27T23:29:00.012+08:00

should I be happy or sad?
I'm turning 20 soon, yeah, real soon~

I've got so much to blog about!
HA-HA!

Firstly, HuanMin is back from Hokkaido, I know I've said that before already.
But look at what she got for Lin and Me? (I am truly touched, she really bought us chocolat blanc et langue de chat!!)
*screamssss*

Super yummy!
and she bought us this much!

I love the Hello Kitty Purple mobile strap, sweet!
(:

Had Christmas Party at NBC!

So happy, got so many presents!
(:

I love presents with ribbons, saw that red one with white ribbons? Sweet uh? HA!!

Went New York New York with Shu, Xin and MeiXia for my birthday celebration.
I was so shocked when the people there brought the cake out and sang a birthday song for me. So shocked I almost cried.
I bet my jaw almost dislocated from my face!
It wasn't planned, that's why its super shocking.
Even my friends are shocked, I guess our faces have the same funny expressions. Haha!

♥

Went MOF with Eliz, Xing, Ting, Nic and Fiz for my birthday celebration yesterday.
Another nice one!
This year I asked for a stalk of rose and a piece of chocolate cake. They bought me a whole bouquet. (SWEEEEEEETTT!!)

Went cam-whoring at Esplanade Roof Terrace.
FUN! so fun! Ha!

I had my third birthday cake at NBC.
Strawberry shortcake!
woohoo...

I got so many presents today.

Seika Made this for me!
TOUCHED TOUCHED!

So nice of you Seika Fujihara!
Thanks for the message, thanks wei wei for your message. (:
(:

Special Thanks to,
(importance is not in order)
Wong Shu Ting
Choo Mei Xia
Elaine Chan
Hafizah
Nicole Seet
Ng Yin Elizabeth
Khoo Rui Xing
Khoo Wan Ting
Seika Fujihara
Lai Zhen Wei (wei wei!)
Joanne Fu (My Kiwi)
Joanne Fu's Boyfriend (i don't know his real name.)
Joanna Soh (huai ren!)
See Weng Chen
Sandy See (my super nice supervisor!)
Cecelia Chai
Lok Wan Er
Sabrina Lee
Darling JL. ( although we had a small fight today, sorry.)
Chang JueYing
Ang Yi Xiang
Debbie Liew
Carmen Wong

and the list shall go on... will add on more tomorrow if the wishes comes in. (:

Well.. I'm still 19 please!

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

TAG REPLIES (:

2008-12-16T22:30:00.002+08:00

1 dec 08> Fiza: nvm, I got the photos now. THANKS! the files were huge! HA!
3 dec 08> Lijie: YAY! (:
7 dec 08> Seika: Yups, I'm still waiting for that nice something.. HA!
15 & 16 dec 08> Xiang: HAHA. hello! Mr Pe Li is nicole call you de la!
15 dec 08> Xing: HA. went thr straight after receive your SMS. but all the things left very little only *sad*
16 dec 08> [lin]: HAHA! random~

missing, who?

2008-12-15T12:02:00.008+08:00

I guess I'm just paranoid.
I know I'm bad trying to read your blog while still trying open my mouth to say, "i am trying to walk away."
Just equivalent to, I am pinching my arm and say, "I'm not in pain, at all."

But still.. I couldn't help it.
Kill me please.
Or u just go kill yourself please.

I can forsee myself being Busy all they way till SUNDAY. -__-"
Monday to Friday (needless to say, Attachment lah!)
Saturday & Sunday (NBC)
Sorry I couldn't attend the engagement party on Saturday. (tsktsk) I feel like a bad friend. *sigh*

Deb is in TW now.
I miss Deb lah, nobody to lunch with me, nobody to crap through those long working hours..
Luckily I still got Wei Wei to accompany me. (:
OK, super random, I know.

Ok, here's another random one.
HUANMIN!
She back from Hokkaido~
Bought me my BAI SE LIAN REN choco.
(but hse say its not nice. it's nice what. -.-)

oh by the way, Happy Birthday Junior Ang~!

amazing

2008-12-08T02:20:00.002+08:00

I can no longer deny the fact that Mr An is indeed a good guy.

(like how?)

Because somebody did some experiment, and proof to me that he is a GOOD GUY.

GOOD as in?
Patient, Friendly, Nice, Helpful.. etc.

That's my verdict,
He looked incredulously cold.
Surprisingly shy?
Urgh, the 2 characteristics is on the extreme.

But, seriously, I am so not into him.
*sigh* if you'll ever believe. It's true.

at the junction- dilemma

2008-12-07T12:56:00.003+08:00

not funny, anymore.

It's time for me to sit down and think.
Where do I wanna go?
Where do I have to head towards?

Should I just stay put, or just leave this place?
If I leave, what is left of me? Who will I leave behind?
Who is there to remember me, praise, tarnish, put me down?

Will all the love left for me able to overcome all those unhappiness that has collate in my heart all these years?
Love for me, is nothing but sweet talks.
Tell me, who actually care?
All these sweet talks is only able to boost up my ego, no more.

Who will be there to listen?
Cause everytime I said something all the replies are shallow.
"everything will be fine.", "u will pass these phase very fast."
BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS NOT GOING TO BE FINE!
NONE OF YOU UNDERSTANDS!

why didn't I get any response like, "tell me, I'm here to listen"??
not even my closest sis, so I don't have high hopes on that.

P/s. Talk is cheap.

shattered

2008-12-04T16:15:00.002+08:00

For once, I really want to let go.
For once, I almost succeed.
But something happened, everything changed.

Tell me why?

I promise I will let go.
But I stepped in once away, drawn by you.
And I know I failed, again, terribly.

I promise to delete you from my friend list.
And it's gonna hurt, a lot.
Good Bye, A.
a final Goodbye.

CRUSH

2008-11-30T18:51:00.002+08:00

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside It was a rush What a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever Feel the same way
About me It's just too much Just too much

Why do I keep runningFrom the truth
All I ever think About is you
You got me hypnotized So mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think When you're all alone
All that we can be Where this can go
Am I crazy Or falling in love
Is it really Just another crush

Do you catch a breath When I look at you
Are you holding back Like the way you do
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush Ain't goin' away Goin' away

Has it ever crossed Your mind
When were hangin' Spending time girl
Are we just friends Is there more Is there more

See it's a chance We've gotta take
Cause I believe That we can Make this into
Something That will lastLast forever Forever

Do you ever think When you're all alone
All that we can be Where this thing can go
Am I crazy Or falling in love
Is it really just Another crush

Do you catch a breath When I look at you
Are you holding back Like the way you do
'Cause I'm trying,trying to walk away
But I know this crush Ain't goin' away Goin' away

Why do I keep running From the truth
All I ever think About is you
You got me hypnotized So mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think When you're all alone
All that we can be Where this can go
Am I crazy Or falling in love
Is it really justAnother crush

Do you catch a breath When I look at you
Are you holding back Like the way you do
'Cause I'm trying, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush Ain't goin' away Goin' away Goin' away

-David Archuleta

I'm really crushed now la! GRR.

I will be back, soon!

2008-11-27T18:49:00.002+08:00

Laptop spoilt.
Will reply all of your tag ASAP.

I miss chatting with my Cliques in MSN. ):
Met up for Eliz's Birthday Celebration, HAPPY!
PHOTOS, send me please!
FIZ, send to my e-mail.
Thanks 'lot!

LOVES!

Laters!

good people

2008-11-12T23:01:00.002+08:00

(:

was raining not say that heavy, but not light also. so i dropped the idea of opening the umbrella.
however, the rain got heavy before I'm in time to reach the MRT station!
jeez.

so I put on my hoodie and ran, halfway a mother and her 2 daughters got in my way so I have to walk behind them.
this time, a person tapped me on my shoulder.
i turn and a middle-aged uncle offered to share his umbrella with me.
(:
GOOD person! (:
Happy now.

HA-HA

hate hate hate

2008-11-09T00:14:00.004+08:00

Met up with my friends and family for dinners after each day of attachment work.
I feel so safe with them.

says who that attachment is fun? my foot!

I never had ever felt so unworthy in doing anything! this is the very first time. WTH!

I hope time can fly even faster for this attachment period. I hope I won't wreck my final project because of this.

be it with him for finding himself a girlfriend. I'm fine now. whatever.
i Know I'll be fine after i've cried enough, okay?
I hope I can finish my attachment asap.
I miss school even more.
I wanna go back school!

what a bad one

2008-11-03T22:31:00.001+08:00

Hey thanks for the truth.

THE END.-

High School Musical 3!

2008-10-28T23:06:00.004+08:00

went to catch HSM3 with my darlings... (:
SO LONG since I last met them!
super happy!

The movie triggers my thoughts from Secondary School.
It makes me regret so much for not attending prom that time.

We monkeyed around Vivo after movie.
PHOTOS... I WANNNNTT!

P/s. High School Never End! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEBBIE!

Dinner!

2008-10-26T23:53:00.002+08:00

Dinner @ New York New York with JueYing!
Actually the dinner lack the candles. HAHA! since it's the 2 of us only.

Hello Love!

Honey Waffles with ice-Cream! (toooo sweet)

Back to NBC. (:

super random and I did this myself. HAH! not bad hair day.

my dinner that saturday night, another random one.

I wish everyday is a public holiday.

P/s. Mr An is a bad guy.

Thoughtful

2008-10-23T22:19:00.003+08:00

MANY THANKS, ANG YIXIANG!
(:

Very sweet of you to buy me Teriyaki Chicken sandwich from campus deli and deliver all the way to my workplace!
Very touched! HA!

THANKS, WEI WEI!
(:

For the postcard you sent from SH. The scenery is really nice!
Knowing that you still thought of me when you are so far away brightens up my day!

LOVES!

what does all your brains contain other than JUNKS?

2008-10-22T21:21:00.002+08:00

KAO!
a bunch of spastics.
FED-UP!

I really wonder what shit does your brains all contain.
FULL OF DIRTY JOKES.

USE UR ASS and think how would you feel if your sisters or even your 'pretty' girlfriends are the ones that got targeted? DO YOU STILL FEEL THE KICK LIKE U WERE SAYING OTHER PEOPLE?

get a life la. go get drunk la. go club la. just keep ur foul mouth to yourselves please!
TMD!

BREAK-NOW

2008-10-21T22:43:00.004+08:00

I NEED A BREAK!

I cannot picture myself working in the IT field after my graduation, really.
I will cry every single day.
Just by looking at the codes and trying to understand them is a chore, let alone writing them from scratch ya?

I am LOST!

I still do not know what project am I assigned to, how can I start my TOR?
I'm actually afraid of the project that is going to be assigned to me, because they will throw me a program and expect me to work it out for them. (ohmygawd)

Last but not least, I can't wait for Friday. (:

I feel very out of place!

2008-10-19T20:11:00.004+08:00

):

I'm so damn sad, I was pin-pointed to screwed up my attachment's data.
That Friday night, I really didn't want to go home alone.
I'm afraid if I see my parents I'll cry again and they'll be so worried.

Instead I cried myself on my way back to the MRT station as well as train.

Ok now when I think back tears formed in my eyes again.

This is the reason I wish so much to be in school when something happens I know my friends would be there. I can cry in front of them and not afraid that they'll laugh at me.
That's how vulnerable I was.

I hate to be in an environment with people who doesn't like me. What for?

hard to realise

2008-10-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

I finally realise... I really MISS MISS MISS extremely miss school please!

I WANT TO BE IN SCHOOL!!!

I want to take bus together with Mr. AN!

It has been very long since I last saw him. Awww....

Well, he somehow has that kind of power that brightens up my day even though he always shoot me that cold look.

WELL, nothing beats to see and be with my friends in school!
I missed Canteen 2's Fish Soup, Canteen 3's Nasi Bryani!
I missed Atrium's Teriyaki Sandwich.
*hint hint* somebody buy me that please! (:
If somebody will buy and send to me after my work... how sweettt! (:

我会好好过

2008-10-14T22:27:00.002+08:00

你的爱很像泡沫
太轻或太重都不在手中
我的爱就像天空
太放或太收你都只是风
你来过却爱上自由
你出走我不问理由
我会好好过等你再爱我
总有个角落会让你想起我
我会好好过等你再爱我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守候
你留下很多
够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重纵使爱太弱
我会好好过等你回头
会看到的一定是我

- 李玖哲 [[我会好好过]]

first day of attachment

2008-10-13T22:52:00.003+08:00

BAH!

I managed to pass my first day of attachment.
Had a bad stomach-ache today.
first time experience MRT in the early morning.
CROWDED!

Luckily I reached early, still enough time for toilet.
(:

I am like a Sotong out of Water? I walked the wrong direction when I'm out of MRT instead of turning left I turned right. (even though I know I should go left)
overly nervous and that's it!

but the company is quite small about 5 workers excluding me and another intern.

but overall I'm feeling OK about the company.
becuz I prefer small group, low friction and easier communication. (:

THANKS ALL MY LOVES FOR UR SMSES AND MSN MESSAGES TODAY!
LOVE LOVE!!!!

P/s. TOMORROW IS A BETTER DAY! (:

back, alive, with bruises

2008-10-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

back in SG.
with bruises, scratches and muscles ache as souvenirs from the trip.

but the trip is nice la.
went caving, night walk, riding on the jeep, paintball, waterfall.
unfortunately I broke my specs during the ride on the jeep. (nice one)

Fun FUn FUN.

I missed a lot a lot of things.
this always never fails, I missed SG toilets.
I missed my bed, my family, my friends, my home, my room, my clothes, my shoes.

i am starting to hate monday.

P/s. Attachment kills.

bye people

suddenly I felt..

2008-10-05T00:35:00.002+08:00

I felt I missed out so much.

Words that couldn't be described hurt more than a knife pierce.

Somehow I'm kind of tired.

I wanna shut up now.

Byebye.

P/s. Kick my butt.

the-not-so-quiet-night

2008-09-22T23:59:00.003+08:00

FIRST OF ALL! I MISSED LAI LIJIE.
(:

ok, back to my blabbering.
Working back in NBC again.
suffering again, huh?
Irritating, arrogant, fierce, pretty, handsome, cute, soft-spoken, polite, smiley customers to deal with everyday. my mood changes with them too. (:

nothing really matters
I don't really care
what nobody tells me
I'm gonna be here
it's a matter of extreme importance - alicia keys

finally i can take a breather.

2008-09-14T23:51:00.003+08:00

after 13 consecutive days of working non-stop I can finally bid goodbye to moon cakes!
HA-HA!

the job itself is never tiring, but the timing is enough to suck my health away.
imagine working from 10am to 9pm every single day for 13 days non-stop. you'll understand by then.
and because of it, I'm down with sore-throat, cough and disastrous flu. (JX hates flu to the core!!)

the very last day (which was yesterday) I opened up my wardrobe and began hugging my clothes because I missed them so much! AHAHAHA!
I HATE WEARING THE BLACK UNIFORM everyday please!
I missed my sandals and pumps very much too!

Anyway, as a privilege of working as a promoter, I get discounts from buying Fairmont Singapore's snowskin moon cakes. HAHA!
Bro at the other venue got himself Shangri La's birdnest moon cakes! 100% guarantee-plus-chop-delicious OKAY??!!
Too bad there is no Goodwood Park Hotel's booth at Westmall. ):
heard theirs goes by first come first serve basis. the Durian moon cakes is delicious too~

Well~ finally and finally. I missed shopping so much I went to shop despite I'm deprived from sleep. HAHAHA!
It feels soooooo good to be able to wear my t-shirts, shorts and sandals again~

I couldn't stop myself from getting a new fragrance.
I've a fetish for parfums. HA!!

smells heavenly~

I cannot stop myself shopping for HelloKitty Stuffs too. bought a letter set and notepad.
Vivo's Sanrio shop has nothing please! the shop is big but the products is like so little la. HAHA!
I wonder where has a Sanrio Shop full of Hello kitty stuffs. I don't mind spending my life there.

Wanted to get an Adidas shirt but no stock. wanted to get a renoma wallet no more also. greatttttt huh?? wanted to buy Usagimomo plushie also no big ones, left tiny ones. EEEKKKK!!!

bad shopping day~
had favourite oyster egg today~ YAY!

well, i gotta hit the bed now~
loves!!

tear-drop

2008-08-31T23:06:00.002+08:00

Quietly, I did some thinking.
Crying all my tears away may make me a happier person, I thought.

I dreamed, myself as someone with no memory.
Scary, I thought.
I don't even know how to walk, to raise my hand and neither do I know how to speak.

I saw myself, as a cat licking its wound.
No matter how much I nurse the wound, it wouldn't heal.
No matter how much I purred, nobody could hear.
I found myself in a strange alley.

I saw someone walking near me, a very familiar figure.
I couldn't picture the face.
I saw that someone raising his hand and grabbed me at the neck, strangling me to death.
Till the last breath I could breathe.

I know everything had come to an end.
To an end of misery...
I could no longer feel, hear, see...

Goodbye, you.
Goodbye, tear-drop.

it turns out as expected!

2008-08-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

OK! went to catch CYBORG SHE as soon as I finished my last paper yo! I can't wait. while having exams, I forced myself not to go to think about it. Although I had the urge to watch even though I have to mug for exams... *CHUCKLES*

THE MOVIE (AS EXPECTED), IS DUPER NICEEE LOR!
the ending was unexpected.
FUNNY, SAD, CUTE and ROMANTIC.
YAY!

gonna buy the DVD if it's out. HAHA!
*jumps up and down*
feel like watching it again.. (oh no~)
HA!

1.39am

2008-08-17T01:37:00.003+08:00

JIA XUAN HATES EXAM.
FINAL exam.
means what?
I've got no more school after this exam, this semester.
NOSTALGIA STRUCK!

I'm really gonna miss my school, classmates and schoolmates!
and some other random people I met in school.
I feel so pathetic.
=X
I want to go schooling forever!
jeez..

i'm tired and do not wish to think

2008-08-13T23:27:00.006+08:00

**lunch at Park Royal Singapore**

and what delights me most is none other than the chocolate fondue there~
and I ate so many prawns that I think I'll develop prawn-phobia. (HAHAHA)

and at night would be Reg's 16th Birthday!
she grew up! (:
my baby Sister. HA!

那次流过的泪　让我学习到
如何祝福　如何转身　不要
在眼泪体会到　与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要　是一种对照

'cause you don't see me.

2008-08-13T00:44:00.005+08:00

i tried. i really tried. but I failed umpteen times and couldn't get out.
so what's the real problem though? is it me or who?

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
'Cause I'm getting tired or pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours you can hold me
I'm empty and taking and tumbling and braking

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
But I dream a fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met?
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see through and not enough to you

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

[you don't see me by Pussycat dolls]

Happy 43rd Bithday SINGAPORE!~

2008-08-09T23:36:00.005+08:00

(:

went with Seika, Li Jie, Jue Ying, Joseph, Marcus and Lee to see fireworks.
FANTASTIC!
nice lor~

tired tired, knee is hurting.
walked from Marina Square to Bugis. (:
no people in the MRT train, yay!

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went out with Lijie and Seika for shopping yesterday~
LALALA.
Never shop for clothes this time. I'm good girl eh?
HAHA!

ok, gtg now.
loves~

a date with Eliz. (:

2008-08-06T23:57:00.003+08:00

Finished watching Absolute Boyfriend (very nice!). Now continuing with Gossip Girl. (:
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Balaji was being very kind-hearted today~ she let us off at 11am. wooooo..

went Bugis with Eliz!
(:
shopping time!
HA-HA
too bad Fuji and Wei Wei couldn't come along.
we will make up for it on FRIDAY!
ya?

shopping means spending~
I spend money on a dress, 2 skirts and 4 shirts recently. HAHA! I'm wasting my money, I know.
but i will show u my most honored purchase. (:

yellow dress.

brown edc flare skirt

white edc cotton skirt.

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4th August 2008:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIN!!!

P/s. I WANNA GET MORE SKIRTS SKIRTS SKIRTS!! (:

never predict the future

2008-08-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

guess what i'm doing now?
still waiting for Absolute Boyfriend last episode to finish loading...
*yawns*
and it's 12.24am now.
HA-HA!

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something really bad happen on Saturday.
often a sudden incident made me think a lot. Like for example, a car accident. U might lose your life, or lose your loved ones lives... U can never predict the future or what's gonna happen next.
life's so unpredictable~

Suddenly when that incident happened, how I wished I could find someone to talk to... very badly. But in my mind, I wondered, if I sms-ed them, will they even care?
I had to work straight after that... had to keep it to myself till I finish work.

the person I thought I would expect a console gave me disappointment.
but very much thanks to Reg and Wei Wei, they asked, "is anybody hurt? are you injured?"
yeah and I almost cried on bus...
suddenly I misses both of them... I wondered who can I turn to when they are not with me anymore..

at least I felt loved.

demo 9 hours later.
bye~

assignments cleared

2008-08-02T10:58:00.002+08:00

YAY!
PIP assignment handed in.
Demo on monday. (:
However, come to think of it, BC on wednesday was a total disaster please!
eek!

NgeeAnn's Canteen 1 is freaking eery.
I was sitting down waiting for Ah shu to come back with her hot water.
when suddenly I heard somebody calling my name, "JIA XUAN!!!".
but when I turned, nobody was there.
HAHA. eww..
So I smsed YC. cuz that person sounded like him, to ask if he was the one who called me.
turn out it wasn't him. -_-?
so who was it?
BUT all my friends came to 1 conclusion:

wei wei: its the first day of the 7th month eh. (so?)
yc: ghost
ah shu: illusion, or maybe the 'thing' la.
reg: don't make it sound so eery can?

so............. its that THING la?!!!

Err... Went out with Reg.
I bought another jacket. (ok, this time not Adidas)
HAHA!
oops.

LALALA.
Happy le, gtg. cya people~

domineering

2008-07-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

Had mala steamboat with Bro, Emily n Reg. (:
nice~
I ate like a ton of beef?
(ok, not that much. but as much as my stomach can withstand)

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although everything is not fine, (even after several attempts), I still have to carry on with my dreadful perl.
I tried so hard, (didn't GOD see how much effort I've put in?)... but I still failed.
my couldn't pass a small test how am I going to succeed in letting go, completely?

I felt so useless having to copy and paste from my previous practicals, from Lijie and from Darren for my assignments.
URGH!

I hate it when I couldn't do things on my own. I felt like a handicapped.
-_________-

BC demo tmr... dread~
Perl still stucked...

P/s. I am still trying...

awkward lift ride~

2008-07-29T21:39:00.005+08:00

PLEAASSEE!

Although I really, sincerely wishes him well (well at least I want him to be happy)...
But it still hurts to see him.
who doesn't?

Try crushing on someone and FORCE yourself into letting it go when u know things would NEVER work out.
and GOD loves to make the 2 of u appear at the same time, same place, same lift. you'll understand by then. yeah.

its torment.
tsk!

had PWA demo. pretty swift. (:
saw russell, zhisen and vina back for viva.
next sem my turn. =S
urgh.

goodbye, my love~

not going to...

2008-07-25T23:51:00.002+08:00

slept for 4 hours before I have to go for 8am class. *yawns*
so tired~

did PWA until 6pm at school.
headache uh.

Now left with PIP assignment.
IGP debate too. ):

Freaking fagged from all these.
I wish to take a break.
take me on a sweet escape~

take me to somewhere that have Hello Kitty to cheer me up.
somebody lend me a shoulder to lean.

a big big bed for me to lie and ease my pain.
a haven for me to do whatever I want and forget about everything else.

at least 1 big hug for me?
physical real hug.
some hug that comes from the heart, not those shallow words.

P/s. Where's my hope? sick and tired. not emo.

satisfied.

2008-07-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

YAY!

NAPFA has finally got to an end.
(:

Results == FAILED.
super satisfied.

cuz standing broad jump fail, I decided not to run for 2.4km. HAHA.
train for so many months, I still lost to Standing Broad Jump ( my enemy since secondary school).

got to get back to work now.
loves!

something's wrong.

2008-07-22T22:55:00.004+08:00

HA-HA!

jo-kiwi kept saying I'm lazy. ):
i'm not lazy, nor am I hardworking.
she says I work 1 day a week, rot more than the boss.
well I know she misses me at work. HAHA.
=x

PWA is a total disaster. PIP coming along, (no good either).
Finished WISP assignment 3.
BC = cleared. (left assignment walk-through)
IGP debate == clueless. -_-?

well, Reg made chocolate cookies! (:
sweet!

so many things to buy still wondering when's my pay out. HAHAHA.

kept digging the fridge to get something to drink. one moment I'm drinking pomegranate juice, the other moment, apple juice, another would be milk. what's next? plain water maybe. HA.

feel like eating oysters now.

P/s. I didn't know paper roses pricked hands too.

super random I know.

at least now I know

2008-07-18T16:41:00.002+08:00

"Loving someone is better than being loved."

so cliche, not!

While having a-heart-to-heart-talk with Reg, I realize both of us came up with the conclusion above. (:

Loving someone is better as you know you have the ability to love and not take others' love for granted. U will know how to appreciate love more than anyone else.

The willingness to sacrifice made yourself happy, right from the heart. Not kidding~
Take a step back, look at the people who loves you, even if you don't love them as much as they do. What is their motive? For you to be happy, ya?

When you love someone, you expect them to be happy. And when they are happy, you too will be affected.

So...... I will not cling on him anymore. I know that's the only thing I could do. Seeing him, happy, is what I wanted all along.

P/s. moved on! (: I'm fine now!

to my beloved Lao Da

2008-07-17T13:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Jia Xuan will be happy~

2008-07-16T21:21:00.004+08:00

Hello~
it has been long since I've written a decent entry. (HAHA)
decent as in, A Happy Entry.
I guess I went into sadness too long that I forgot how I used to blog about my day, how I rant and feel happy at the same time.

It's hard to get back to that again, but i'll try.

Watched Zettai Kareshi. (oops, I know I'm bad in class today)
The show is nice, about a girl having a robot as her boyfriend. Lots of funny moments and fond memories. (:

Will have presentation on Friday. *nervous*
guess I need to rehearse at home a bit then. HAHA.

I've been slacking like a lot this semester. I kept using computer at night without doing my school work. =p

Lots of assignments piling, and I'm still dilly dally-ing.
Good luck for my presentation on Friday~

Loves!

P/s. bro says I'm gay.
Just because I start to feel negative about boys that much, damn.
If not for the cookie, I won't even feel this way. Shit him!

bro's birthday celebration

2008-07-14T22:09:00.003+08:00

YAY!!!
IHP people finally finish their project and report!
butbutbut... I miss them already!
):

meet up meet up please!

took the same bus with Mr An and his friend.
he gave me that cold look when I turn to look at him. grrr...
but he looked handsome today, with his collar shirt in purple stripes.

anyway, stayed till 7pm in school with ah shu.
then head down to bro's small birthday dinner.
i was stuffed. the crabby, sad to say, isn't as nice as expected.
but the overall food is nice, especially the beef meat. (:

and you never know what it feels like to be at the same place, same time with that wally amos. -_-"
maybe you all don't think its a big deal. but I do think its a big deal. argh!
maybe he didn't notice i'm there. =X

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went out with reg yesterday.
head down to Bugis after I received a call from Kiwi's bf.
they told me to go for work. well, I know they are just kidding.
maybe Kiwi misses me, that's why~
HEHEHE.

Kiwi wrote me love letter. how sweet~
well, u all won't want to know the content, as it's totally rubbish. HAHAHA!
she said I always smelt like peppermint. like real~ herr!
i smell like perfume ok?? wahaha.

collected my Levi's! YIPPEE!
went from Marina Square to Raffles City, by foot. just to withdraw money can?
all the ATMs ran out of $10- note. geez.

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p/s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SABRINA!

the BA bazaar

2008-07-12T22:25:00.004+08:00

went to help out Zhang Wen in her BA bazaar held at beside woodlands civic center.
(:

saw Weisheng, Benedict, Jeremy and Gary there too.
and the-very-pretty-jacelyn tay. (:

stayed till 5pm. wanted to stay till the end but too tired to go on. =X

bro came home early today and the 3 of us were chatting.
and bro said he and his friends always like to bet to see who can hong girls successfully. chey! hongsters.

I wanna watch this! Cyborg She the movie!!!
It's about a man who had build a robotic girlfriend in 2070 and he uses a travel device and send the girlfriend back to the past to prevent him in an attempt to prevent the incident that crippled him (in 2007 a mentally unstable office worker shots him in a restaurant shootout). The cyborg meets up with the boy (back when he was younger) and successfully saves him from being shot by the gunman.

They started to fall in love, and live their lives happily until 1 day when an earthquake hit Tokyo and in order to save the boy, the cyborg was seriously damaged.

showing 21 aug 2008.
(:

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yesterday after finishing class, went IHP room to wait for Nicole.
something funny happen in there.

2 boys. A & B.
B entered IHP room with another boy.
A stared at B, and I somehow caught B blushing.

When I saw that, I turn to look from B to A, and I think A caught me seeing him staring at B so A gave me that cold look and turn back to his comp.

OOPS!
but B left soon after...
I guess last Friday will be the last day I will see them in school.
as they finished their projects and reports.
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guess I gtg. cya~

assignments starts

2008-07-07T21:28:00.002+08:00

today mark the end of hell from IHP. (for project people) *YAY*
but hell starts today for people taking the same modules as me... hateful Matlab is back! oh no~ ):

I am very happy because I bought my pair of Levi's! *yay*
I'm gonna collect it on Wednesday onwards. wooooooooooooo. (:

i'm lost for words. that's all for now~
bye!

what exactly happen?

2008-07-03T22:04:00.003+08:00

why am I stuck when writing post nowadays?
who exactly am I even hoping will be reading this?

"Don't make someone a priority when you're just an option."

so why am I even making you my priority when I am not even your option?
seeing you occasionally in school makes my heart flutter, but to my not-exactly-surprise what non-verbal language you are sending to me is, "Please don't tell me you want to know me. cuz' I don't want anything to do with you, so please leave me alone."

一个人
偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边

nothing's gonna be the same

2008-06-29T22:42:00.002+08:00

study study study.
work work work.
tired tired tired.

gotten back all my exam results. first 3 modules- A (good). but the last paper- D (-___-").
aiseh, AD. NOT!

super sad. but it was kind of expected. I even had the mentality that I'll flunk it. so I guess a D is good enough.

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bro said this to me that left me so so so touched!

(was cooking instant noodle, and was trying to soak the pre-cooked noodle in the hot water)
bro: xuan, what are you doing?
ME: removing the wax.
bro: what for? not like you always eat them.
ME: but when i work OT i always eat cup noodles.
bro: why!?
ME: cuz OT means I need to eat 2 meals. no money to eat so have to eat cup noodles.
bro: aiyo~ silly! no money to eat can ask from me ma.
ME: i always seldom see u at home de.
bro: can call me and say u OT then i will give u money to eat la.
ME: oh.
bro: next time got OT must tell kor kor ok? always eat cup noodles not good leh, silly girl.

OMGoodness! :D
touchedtouchedtouchedtouchedtouched
*watery-eyed*
seriously i almost burst into tears. (:

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went for work. my colleagues can make me laugh non-stop lor!
wahahaha.
especially kiwi and sabway. LOL.
full of jokes when they're around. hahaha.

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had lunch with ah shu and darling after school on friday(27 jun 08).

went IMM after that.
(:
*happy*
i bought hello kitty chopsticks w/ box.

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i have so much to say. but i found myself stucked with my words.
I promise never to mention your name again.
I promise never to make myself unhappy.
I promise I'll treat myself better.
I promise and will do it.

gtg. cya~

satisfy my taste bud please. (:

2008-06-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

Have a sudden urge to eat a lot of junks.!!

Like, Onigiri (although I ate one yesterday), Pasta, Pomfret, Shabu-shabu, loot-loot, pizza, banana-boat, waffles, fishballs, strawberries, raw carrot juice, corn flakes, etc. too many to list out.

:)

after talking to Ange, YC, Marvin n Juejue, I felt better now.
there are some things that I could never take under control of, like how human thinks and how they behave, their feelings and all.

I hope people do care even if they never say it out. (:

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World Issues is killing me.
*sigh*
guess I got to keep on going. hopefully this time round we don't let smoke comes out from her ears! (like what she said)

gtg now~

心里的雨倾盆而下
也沾不湿她的发
本应该明信片上的牵挂
那伤心原来没有时差

心里的雨倾盆而下
却始终淋不到她
寒风经过院子里的枝芽
也冷却了我手中的鲜花

i found out too late?

2008-06-24T22:47:00.004+08:00

我已经渐渐习惯　忙碌把生活填满　
和自己分享晚餐　式着活得更理所当然　
我已经渐渐习惯　对感情順其自然　
只是我还不明白　失去你的天空　
为何看来不那么蔚蓝

all i know is i can never believe anyone's words.
now whatever you all says seems fake to me.
nothing will make up for it.

i hate myself for being emotional, and i hate myself for crying myself to bed every night.
i'm sick n tired.
if i have no temper who would I be?
i can never only be a fair-weather friend.
i can never use words to cheer u up.
i will never find answers to the problem that has been revolving around me all these years.

and why do i build up walls? just because I think everyone carries spikes.
because no one cares when i needed them.

it's only when i post my grief here will u all start to notice.
but can't u all be more sensitive?
so don't ask why.

schoooool tomorrow yeah~

2008-06-22T22:26:00.003+08:00

And I'm here...

(:
Happy as I can head back to school tomorrow. *yayness*
having to know its the 2nd part of my last semester in NgeeAnn sadness overwhelms me. well, I love schoool~
SCHOOL is like a goal in life, to me.
NO SCHOOL == NO GOAL in life.

I will and hope I can continue schooling forever!!
well I know its not possible.

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and on a very angry note.
I so so so hate hate hate hate today's 960 and the driver!
I waited 35minutes just for it to arrive!
really feel like kicking and slapping the uncle!
and I am so late for work.
uncle is driving even slower than a snail could slide.
normally it would take a journey from bukit panjang to bugis say about 30minutes.
that uncle drove for 40minutes. goodness!
*angry angry*
he still can stop at the bus stop to ask the passengers to move to the rear. *time wasting*
if not for him, would people waiting for 960 be late for work?
arghh!!

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I will miss JOkiwi. (:
she helped me punched card today and bought me breakfast!
lovess!

worked half day today and went shopping with mummy and darling.
happy to see my hellokitty stuffs. mummy was complaining saying i'm wasting money on buying all those stuffs. ):
mummy is very fierce today. *sigh*

and we went lots of places today. but all around chinatown. (:
sight-seeing only. we only bought daily neccessities.
not wasting any money. YAY!

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i'm still happy for tomorrow!
lalala

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kiwi: aiyo,
miss me so ah? miss till a big red pimple on ur face!
ME: yeah yeah. (sarcastically)
kiwi: (talking to JN) she even sms me ask why i nv come for work. never
come means off day la. like tt also dunno. haiyo.
JN: Jiaxuan, then its ur fault le. haiz.
ME: (speechless). ya, all my fault eh. herr!

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the end.

as time passes

2008-06-21T00:04:00.002+08:00

happy me!
I finally got my NAME TAG after working 9months in NBC! YAY!!
all along i've been carrying the 'trainee' name tag. now i have 1 with my name 'Jia Xuan' on it!
(:

worked till 6.30pm today. mummy and darling came down to accompany for dinner! (:
shopped around OG and found nothing.
but we bought salty raisins and chocolates!
and come to think of chocolates, I miss Meiji factory! ):

I miss xing, nic, fiza, ting n eliz! when's another gathering?
I miss Cheryl, Cheryl Hong too. (sorry that I can't meet u on saturday, working)
I miss going out with Deb too. (sorry that I can't meet u on friday)

school's around the corner. (:
but assignments are due soon too.
hopefully everything's gonna be fine.
but I know some things are just not going to be fine.

P/s. the scar will always be there.

i will and hope i'm given a chance to.

2008-06-18T21:32:00.002+08:00

mood: happy as well as sad. (all mixed up)
I'm wondering why am I being so faithful to my blog.

I will from this very moment stop treating myself so terribly and move on~
I will never shed a tear for any guy in this world for this lifetime, the next and the next next.
I will never do anything as stupid as what I have done.

on a happier note:
although Sentosa trip was cancelled, we went town instead. funfunfun. (:
last week of holiday. can get back school and be with them again. YAY!

(:
bro's quite high yesterday evening, he wanted to take pictures so he dragged us to wear sunnies and pose for different expressions. (super funny).

bro: come ah, take photos with me leh u 2! (refering to my sis n I)
US: sure.
bro: take ur sunnies with u. come 1, 2, 3, pose!
US: (smiles)
bro: act fierce, act cool whatever. nice one ah. faster!
US: how la... haiyer.
bro: like that la, so easy.

well this goes on for like 30minutes?

Bro: u better don't go post in your blog ah I tell u.
ME: y?
Bro: wah lau, later let others see my fit body for what. later they stalk
me home leh.
ME: er xin la! (means: don't let me vomit please)

but indeed bro is super fit and tanned now. oohh~ he said his muscles are not big enough. oversized sometimes over does the effect lor.

whatever!

gtg now!
bye people.

badbadbad

2008-06-17T23:13:00.005+08:00

ME: hey kiwi i know who u were saying. the boy who work in design ur own
tshirt. i saw him yesterday. :P
(i went back to work after sending that sms.)
JO-armani: who i said? peppermint, u don anyhow say hor... dreaming ah
u?

ME: good evening NBC
JO-armani: u jiaxuan ah.
ME: ya.
JO-armani: ni zai jiang shui?! sui bian jiang ah. (who u refering? anyhow
say ah?)
ME: there, the 1 working in Bugis de lor. css de. wear specs. indonesian
chinese.
JO-armani: orh! u know already ah. ok, CHEY! wu liao.
ME: -__-"
she's the 1 who tell me to go see him. now she says I have nothing better to
do? (what?!!) too bad kiwi (Jo-armani) not working today. eek. she is super
cute can?!
another incident:
(ring ring)
ME: hello?
Jo-armani: i'm calling from NTUC...
ME: what? joanne don't play la I know its u.
Jo-armani: wha lao. not fun de. how u know?
ME: i can see you from the camera la. haha. somemore is NBC number leh.
Jo-armani: chey, waste my time. i tot u not here yet ma.
ME: NTUC some more.
Jo-armani: HAHAHA.

gonna see her on thurs then! (:

and...
SENTOSA tomorrow!
bad Seika. ps us. grrr... back out eh. boo!

nothing funny happen today.

school tmr. assignment. bad jiaxuan.

i think through a lot yesterday night. i even cried myself to sleep after that.
ah shu ask me whether to give up or not.
although I know 101% he don't like me, still, clinging on him gives me hope. what can I do to prevent myself from falling deep again?

lots of ifs ran through my mind.
if i am another person, will u choose me?
if i change the way i want to get close to u, will u be friends with me?
if i am born prettier, will u start to notice me?
if i am born another girl, will i still meet u?
if my attitude doesn't sucked that much, will u change ur attitude towards me?
if i don't like u, will i be suffering?

if if if... or even so, if i am not even born, where'd I be then? where'd u be?

everybody's mad at jiaxuan!
):
all I know is to make people mad at me. darling's mad, mummy's mad.
as bad as it sounds, they'll forgive me.
but how can i prevent myself from committing the same thing again?

if there's 1 sense i can remove, i'd choose to remove my sense of feeling. so i can feel nothing. like a numb human.

我就是这样天马行空的磁场
或许你还不习惯我在等你变成拍档
我就是这样注定和你不一样
谢谢你欣不欣赏我的风格是限量

i have funny collegues!

2008-06-16T20:59:00.003+08:00

HOHOHO!

something funny. I reached office at 9.45am (when I start work at 10.30am). I walked in, eerily quiet. checked schedule and I freaked out, I'm suppose to work 1-10pm!!!?? panic panic. then should I go home? or stay?

I decided to lock up the door and went off. then I double checked my own schedule, eh?! "Early", it said. so I unlock the door again and went in, to double check. CHEY!!!! really, I see wrongly. ):

made me look like an idiot.
told kiwi and she laughed non-stop. jn was speechless. HA-HA!

kiwi: u ah, mei da mei xiao (no respect for elders)
ME: =x
kiwi: u working tomorrow?
ME: yeah
kiwi: yay! i love peppermint!
ME: i love kiwi!
BOTH: HAHAHAHA.

kiwi said I'm peppermint.
she told me to go eat peppermint ice-cream at marine parade.
so far eh.

winniethepooh: he jia xuan! u should buy that lucky cat.
ME: which one?
winniethepooh: the pink 1 la.
ME: y?
winniethepooh: u need it very much
ME: huh?
winniethepooh: symbolise love. u really need romance.
ME: -___-"
winniethepooh: i intro u boys la?
ME: don't want, unrealistic.
winniethepooh: better than that school mate of yours. act only.
ME: -___-", but i think he is handsome lor.
winniethepooh: so ugly. next time find a handsome 1 show it to him. don't need to be sad over this kind of people. not worth.
ME: OK! (:
winniethepooh: don't cry ah!

JN n winniethepooh was chatting about something so i overheard it and asked, "what u all talking about?"
JN: wrapy ur present! ask so much!
ME: ...
JN: haha, kena scolded anyhow hor?
ME: haha

YAY!!! Sentosa is still ON!
lalala~
steamboat at night, maybe?

(:
kiwi not working tmr, sian.
no entertainer.

but subway is working tmr!
(:
OT tmr, damn.

nights~

more time for me please!

2008-06-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

):

just received sms from jue jue that we'll be going out on wednesday.
another side receive news I had to go back school for UTM assignment, on WED too!!!
*angry*

how come!?
aren't there any way for me to kill 2 birds with 1 stone?
):

more time more time!!
assignments due, packed working schedule. i'm dead. totally dead.

not happy anymore.
):

p/s. received juejue sms telling me something about him. should I be happy or sad? paranoid.

tagged.

2008-06-13T00:54:00.002+08:00

before I start, I miss Seika. Seika Fujihara. (:
is she back in sg yet?

START:

01. What do you want most now?
myself leaving this hectic world.

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
Japan's Puroland.

03. What's your favorite thing to do?
daydreaming

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
YES, definitely. but not LOVE.

05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
world vanishes (so no one will ever feel the pain anymore)

06. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Definitely NO.

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
every single member of HOrlick family. (not anyone less)

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
put in bank to accumulate another 1 million.

09. What do you dream of doing in the future?
being with my beloved and stay happy forever (like that day will ever come)

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
JUEYING. #1, she my jue jue. #2, she's funny and nice. #3, she's special as she is. (:

11. What makes you happy?
crying myself out

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
somebody who has a face like LWJ, and the height of A.Koh, and the attitude of my mummy (cuz i'm jealous of them to have that kind of features and personality)

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
stucked in sg, slogging my life away~ (i'm so poor now, what do I expect?)

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
turn every single soul to be as happy as possible (no worries at all)

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
unconditional L-O-V-E (definitely not BGR, I don't believe BGR has it)

16. Any childhood memories you'll like to re-live?
holding my daddy and mummy hands while running across the mega field stepping on those mimosa plants! (but they could not run like they used to anymore)

17. If you have a chance to change your life now, what would you want to change?
the very moment I was born. I believe if I'm born a second later I'll be different.

18. The love of your life now?
myself

19. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like he/she?
yeah, of course. only if I'm really in love with him. (i did that, once)

20. Who's on your mind right now?
mr LWJ! (well, he's cute)

Instructions:
Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 10 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Jia Lin darling
2. Jueying
3. LiJie
4. Nicole
5. WanTing
6. RuiXing
7. Debbie
8. Seika
9. Cheryl
10. Ken Koh (he tagged me last time so its time for revenge)

FINISHED! (:

P/s. very satisfied with my answers. (:

kawaiileafy's- Every Little Thing

Parents are hard to forget

a simple decision

M O V E D - OFFICIAL

Jolly December- The season of giving.

[QU] November 2009

a trip to T1

ungrateful human, ME

this time emo, not

DBSK MV- Bolero

what happened to blogger?

Ah yi miss you~

Birthday Wishes on Aug 2009 *edited*

post? shall do.

the late calendar

NP Graduation '09?? (EDITED)

i want to live without regrets

the Graduation attire

if tears could wash away every thing

I knew too well

Prince of Tennis Movie

Full update

The Lychee Incident

picnic- not

Chocolate Prata

it doesn't matter anymore?

I want to be brave.

PROM! *EDITED*

Prom is draining all my energy

out with Xin n Shu

The sentosa trip

傻瓜

BBDC1

yesterday happy, today not

The un-Usual V day.

AUSTWINE @ Farm Mart

gossip girl season 1. completed. *edited*

lifeless

jiaxuan is seriously sick.

This, or that?

offically over, and happy!

Happy CNY 2009!

Wan Ting's birthday celebration

Special Thanks! ♥

last day of my teen days

TAG REPLIES (:

missing, who?

amazing

at the junction- dilemma

shattered

CRUSH

I will be back, soon!

good people

hate hate hate

what a bad one

High School Musical 3!

Dinner!

Thoughtful

what does all your brains contain other than JUNKS?

BREAK-NOW

I feel very out of place!

hard to realise

我会好好过

first day of attachment

back, alive, with bruises

suddenly I felt..

the-not-so-quiet-night

finally i can take a breather.

tear-drop

it turns out as expected!

1.39am

i'm tired and do not wish to think

'cause you don't see me.

Happy 43rd Bithday SINGAPORE!~

a date with Eliz. (:

never predict the future

assignments cleared

domineering

awkward lift ride~

not going to...

Birthday Wishes on Aug 2009 edited

PROM! EDITED

gossip girl season 1. completed. edited