tear-drop

Quietly, I did some thinking.
Crying all my tears away may make me a happier person, I thought.

I dreamed, myself as someone with no memory.
Scary, I thought.
I don't even know how to walk, to raise my hand and neither do I know how to speak.

I saw myself, as a cat licking its wound.
No matter how much I nurse the wound, it wouldn't heal.
No matter how much I purred, nobody could hear.
I found myself in a strange alley.

I saw someone walking near me, a very familiar figure.
I couldn't picture the face.
I saw that someone raising his hand and grabbed me at the neck, strangling me to death.
Till the last breath I could breathe.

I know everything had come to an end.
To an end of misery...
I could no longer feel, hear, see...

Goodbye, you.
Goodbye, tear-drop.

it turns out as expected!

OK! went to catch CYBORG SHE as soon as I finished my last paper yo! I can't wait. while having exams, I forced myself not to go to think about it. Although I had the urge to watch even though I have to mug for exams... *CHUCKLES*

THE MOVIE (AS EXPECTED), IS DUPER NICEEE LOR!
the ending was unexpected.
FUNNY, SAD, CUTE and ROMANTIC.
YAY!

gonna buy the DVD if it's out. HAHA!
*jumps up and down*
feel like watching it again.. (oh no~)
HA!

1.39am

JIA XUAN HATES EXAM.
FINAL exam.
means what?
I've got no more school after this exam, this semester.
NOSTALGIA STRUCK!

I'm really gonna miss my school, classmates and schoolmates!
and some other random people I met in school.
I feel so pathetic.
=X
I want to go schooling forever!
jeez..

i'm tired and do not wish to think

**lunch at Park Royal Singapore**

and what delights me most is none other than the chocolate fondue there~
and I ate so many prawns that I think I'll develop prawn-phobia. (HAHAHA)

and at night would be Reg's 16th Birthday!
she grew up! (:
my baby Sister. HA!






那次流过的泪　让我学习到
如何祝福　如何转身　不要
在眼泪体会到　与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要　是一种对照

'cause you don't see me.

i tried. i really tried. but I failed umpteen times and couldn't get out.
so what's the real problem though? is it me or who?

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
'Cause I'm getting tired or pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours you can hold me
I'm empty and taking and tumbling and braking

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
But I dream a fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met?
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see through and not enough to you

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

[you don't see me by Pussycat dolls]

Happy 43rd Bithday SINGAPORE!~

(:

went with Seika, Li Jie, Jue Ying, Joseph, Marcus and Lee to see fireworks.
FANTASTIC!
nice lor~

tired tired, knee is hurting.
walked from Marina Square to Bugis. (:
no people in the MRT train, yay!

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went out with Lijie and Seika for shopping yesterday~
LALALA.
Never shop for clothes this time. I'm good girl eh?
HAHA!

ok, gtg now.
loves~

a date with Eliz. (:

Finished watching Absolute Boyfriend (very nice!). Now continuing with Gossip Girl. (:
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Balaji was being very kind-hearted today~ she let us off at 11am. wooooo..

went Bugis with Eliz!
(:
shopping time!
HA-HA
too bad Fuji and Wei Wei couldn't come along.
we will make up for it on FRIDAY!
ya?

shopping means spending~
I spend money on a dress, 2 skirts and 4 shirts recently. HAHA! I'm wasting my money, I know.
but i will show u my most honored purchase. (:

yellow dress.

brown edc flare skirt

white edc cotton skirt.

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4th August 2008:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIN!!!

P/s. I WANNA GET MORE SKIRTS SKIRTS SKIRTS!! (:

never predict the future

guess what i'm doing now?
still waiting for Absolute Boyfriend last episode to finish loading...
*yawns*
and it's 12.24am now.
HA-HA!

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something really bad happen on Saturday.
often a sudden incident made me think a lot. Like for example, a car accident. U might lose your life, or lose your loved ones lives... U can never predict the future or what's gonna happen next.
life's so unpredictable~

Suddenly when that incident happened, how I wished I could find someone to talk to... very badly. But in my mind, I wondered, if I sms-ed them, will they even care?
I had to work straight after that... had to keep it to myself till I finish work.

the person I thought I would expect a console gave me disappointment.
but very much thanks to Reg and Wei Wei, they asked, "is anybody hurt? are you injured?"
yeah and I almost cried on bus...
suddenly I misses both of them... I wondered who can I turn to when they are not with me anymore..

at least I felt loved.

demo 9 hours later.
bye~

assignments cleared

YAY!
PIP assignment handed in.
Demo on monday. (:
However, come to think of it, BC on wednesday was a total disaster please!
eek!

NgeeAnn's Canteen 1 is freaking eery.
I was sitting down waiting for Ah shu to come back with her hot water.
when suddenly I heard somebody calling my name, "JIA XUAN!!!".
but when I turned, nobody was there.
HAHA. eww..
So I smsed YC. cuz that person sounded like him, to ask if he was the one who called me.
turn out it wasn't him. -_-?
so who was it?
BUT all my friends came to 1 conclusion:

wei wei: its the first day of the 7th month eh. (so?)
yc: ghost
ah shu: illusion, or maybe the 'thing' la.
reg: don't make it sound so eery can?

so............. its that THING la?!!!

Err... Went out with Reg.
I bought another jacket. (ok, this time not Adidas)
HAHA!
oops.

LALALA.
Happy le, gtg. cya people~