domineering

Had mala steamboat with Bro, Emily n Reg. (:
nice~
I ate like a ton of beef?
(ok, not that much. but as much as my stomach can withstand)

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although everything is not fine, (even after several attempts), I still have to carry on with my dreadful perl.
I tried so hard, (didn't GOD see how much effort I've put in?)... but I still failed.
my couldn't pass a small test how am I going to succeed in letting go, completely?

I felt so useless having to copy and paste from my previous practicals, from Lijie and from Darren for my assignments.
URGH!

I hate it when I couldn't do things on my own. I felt like a handicapped.
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BC demo tmr... dread~
Perl still stucked...

P/s. I am still trying...

awkward lift ride~

PLEAASSEE!

Although I really, sincerely wishes him well (well at least I want him to be happy)...
But it still hurts to see him.
who doesn't?

Try crushing on someone and FORCE yourself into letting it go when u know things would NEVER work out.
and GOD loves to make the 2 of u appear at the same time, same place, same lift. you'll understand by then. yeah.

its torment.
tsk!

had PWA demo. pretty swift. (:
saw russell, zhisen and vina back for viva.
next sem my turn. =S
urgh.

goodbye, my love~

not going to...

slept for 4 hours before I have to go for 8am class. *yawns*
so tired~

did PWA until 6pm at school.
headache uh.

Now left with PIP assignment.
IGP debate too. ):

Freaking fagged from all these.
I wish to take a break.
take me on a sweet escape~

take me to somewhere that have Hello Kitty to cheer me up.
somebody lend me a shoulder to lean.

a big big bed for me to lie and ease my pain.
a haven for me to do whatever I want and forget about everything else.

at least 1 big hug for me?
physical real hug.
some hug that comes from the heart, not those shallow words.

P/s. Where's my hope? sick and tired. not emo.

satisfied.

YAY!

NAPFA has finally got to an end.
(:

Results == FAILED.
super satisfied.

cuz standing broad jump fail, I decided not to run for 2.4km. HAHA.
train for so many months, I still lost to Standing Broad Jump ( my enemy since secondary school).

got to get back to work now.
loves!

something's wrong.

HA-HA!

jo-kiwi kept saying I'm lazy. ):
i'm not lazy, nor am I hardworking.
she says I work 1 day a week, rot more than the boss.
well I know she misses me at work. HAHA.
=x

PWA is a total disaster. PIP coming along, (no good either).
Finished WISP assignment 3.
BC = cleared. (left assignment walk-through)
IGP debate == clueless. -_-?

well, Reg made chocolate cookies! (:
sweet!

so many things to buy still wondering when's my pay out. HAHAHA.

kept digging the fridge to get something to drink. one moment I'm drinking pomegranate juice, the other moment, apple juice, another would be milk. what's next? plain water maybe. HA.

feel like eating oysters now.

P/s. I didn't know paper roses pricked hands too.

super random I know.

at least now I know

"Loving someone is better than being loved."

so cliche, not!

While having a-heart-to-heart-talk with Reg, I realize both of us came up with the conclusion above. (:

Loving someone is better as you know you have the ability to love and not take others' love for granted. U will know how to appreciate love more than anyone else.

The willingness to sacrifice made yourself happy, right from the heart. Not kidding~
Take a step back, look at the people who loves you, even if you don't love them as much as they do. What is their motive? For you to be happy, ya?

When you love someone, you expect them to be happy. And when they are happy, you too will be affected.

So...... I will not cling on him anymore. I know that's the only thing I could do. Seeing him, happy, is what I wanted all along.

P/s. moved on! (: I'm fine now!

to my beloved Lao Da

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Jia Xuan will be happy~

Hello~
it has been long since I've written a decent entry. (HAHA)
decent as in, A Happy Entry.
I guess I went into sadness too long that I forgot how I used to blog about my day, how I rant and feel happy at the same time.

It's hard to get back to that again, but i'll try.

Watched Zettai Kareshi. (oops, I know I'm bad in class today)
The show is nice, about a girl having a robot as her boyfriend. Lots of funny moments and fond memories. (:

Will have presentation on Friday. *nervous*
guess I need to rehearse at home a bit then. HAHA.

I've been slacking like a lot this semester. I kept using computer at night without doing my school work. =p

Lots of assignments piling, and I'm still dilly dally-ing.
Good luck for my presentation on Friday~

Loves!

P/s. bro says I'm gay.
Just because I start to feel negative about boys that much, damn.
If not for the cookie, I won't even feel this way. Shit him!

bro's birthday celebration

YAY!!!
IHP people finally finish their project and report!
butbutbut... I miss them already!
):

meet up meet up please!

took the same bus with Mr An and his friend.
he gave me that cold look when I turn to look at him. grrr...
but he looked handsome today, with his collar shirt in purple stripes.

anyway, stayed till 7pm in school with ah shu.
then head down to bro's small birthday dinner.
i was stuffed. the crabby, sad to say, isn't as nice as expected.
but the overall food is nice, especially the beef meat. (:

and you never know what it feels like to be at the same place, same time with that wally amos. -_-"
maybe you all don't think its a big deal. but I do think its a big deal. argh!
maybe he didn't notice i'm there. =X

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went out with reg yesterday.
head down to Bugis after I received a call from Kiwi's bf.
they told me to go for work. well, I know they are just kidding.
maybe Kiwi misses me, that's why~
HEHEHE.

Kiwi wrote me love letter. how sweet~
well, u all won't want to know the content, as it's totally rubbish. HAHAHA!
she said I always smelt like peppermint. like real~ herr!
i smell like perfume ok?? wahaha.

collected my Levi's! YIPPEE!
went from Marina Square to Raffles City, by foot. just to withdraw money can?
all the ATMs ran out of $10- note. geez.

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p/s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SABRINA!

the BA bazaar

went to help out Zhang Wen in her BA bazaar held at beside woodlands civic center.
(:

saw Weisheng, Benedict, Jeremy and Gary there too.
and the-very-pretty-jacelyn tay. (:

stayed till 5pm. wanted to stay till the end but too tired to go on. =X

bro came home early today and the 3 of us were chatting.
and bro said he and his friends always like to bet to see who can hong girls successfully. chey! hongsters.


I wanna watch this! Cyborg She the movie!!!
It's about a man who had build a robotic girlfriend in 2070 and he uses a travel device and send the girlfriend back to the past to prevent him in an attempt to prevent the incident that crippled him (in 2007 a mentally unstable office worker shots him in a restaurant shootout). The cyborg meets up with the boy (back when he was younger) and successfully saves him from being shot by the gunman.

They started to fall in love, and live their lives happily until 1 day when an earthquake hit Tokyo and in order to save the boy, the cyborg was seriously damaged.

showing 21 aug 2008.
(:

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yesterday after finishing class, went IHP room to wait for Nicole.
something funny happen in there.

2 boys. A & B.
B entered IHP room with another boy.
A stared at B, and I somehow caught B blushing.

When I saw that, I turn to look from B to A, and I think A caught me seeing him staring at B so A gave me that cold look and turn back to his comp.

OOPS!
but B left soon after...
I guess last Friday will be the last day I will see them in school.
as they finished their projects and reports.
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guess I gtg. cya~

assignments starts

today mark the end of hell from IHP. (for project people) *YAY*
but hell starts today for people taking the same modules as me... hateful Matlab is back! oh no~ ):

I am very happy because I bought my pair of Levi's! *yay*
I'm gonna collect it on Wednesday onwards. wooooooooooooo. (:

i'm lost for words. that's all for now~
bye!

what exactly happen?

why am I stuck when writing post nowadays?
who exactly am I even hoping will be reading this?

"Don't make someone a priority when you're just an option."

so why am I even making you my priority when I am not even your option?
seeing you occasionally in school makes my heart flutter, but to my not-exactly-surprise what non-verbal language you are sending to me is, "Please don't tell me you want to know me. cuz' I don't want anything to do with you, so please leave me alone."

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