am I trying to be a Miss Perfect?

heys.

I just know 1 thing, I GOTTA CATCH UP on my school work.
*feels so guilty*
because I feel like I've never tried enough to get my work done in time, I never took the effort to re-go-through the stuffs teacher taught me. it's my fault. just like today, Eliz asked me, "Do you feel stressed?" and the Answer is No. which is a bit shameful.
because we are suppose to feel the stress level( at least the minimum) we are having while studying. but unfortunately, I'm not.

and this causes me unable to understand IB.

i'm not trying to be emo.-

at dinner time, I was telling Lynn, "sometimes I hate myself."
and her response was, "WHY?"
and I told her, "because I feel at times I feel i'm not doing good enough, no matter how hard I try i still think I'm not achieving what I'm aiming for. I never feel the sense of achievement. I felt like a loser."
and she said, "don't be a MISS PERFECT. u r trying to be perfect in everything!"
BUTBUTBUT I'm not.
I just feel out of control when things doesn't go the way I want it to be. I feel insecure whenever I cannot cope with things in life.

gtg now.

P/s. countdown, 2 more days.


U're special and nobody can be on par with U.
*~*till the end*~*