back here.. dreading

[+_-MiSS-inG Him... LOads-_+]
**memories of u fadding..**
heyhey..
i'm back. i'm so lazy to update. I can't touch comp, I don't wanna get distracted. I'm trying very very hard. not to post about him. I so trying hard to let go. is it possible though?
who is cruel here? if never try to let go, i'm cruel to myself. as i write this down, i'm controlling my tears. alot of things of him, trying to let go is hard. slowly decreasing.. slowly returning to 10 dec 2005. (see? i still remember the date i 1st saw him). although nothing happen to us, nothing more than just me missing him- alone. it's hard, ok?
*sniff sniff* everything will return to normal tomorrow.

these few days, i'm so tired, i dreaded crawling out of bed, i dread doing housework. i dread switching on my comp. i dreaded missing BSG. 1 darling is so hard to get, so hard to forget also. *tears* his face? blurry.. his smile? i can hardly rmb. his everything? not a least vivid. but i dreamed of him every now and then. wat does that mean? people often says, dream is totally opposite from reality, mayb so, means i should forget him? really?

no mood now..
goodbye, bsg. -_-

tears shedding, heart breaking
what more do I get from missing you?!