What can I do?

[+_-MiSS-inG Him... LOads-_+]
**I WON'T let this Memory FaDe AWAY.**
First of all, sry to those ppl who r reading this entry. I'm so frustrated, so I may b abit harsh.
For heaven's sake, I don't undrstnd, y does family members jux like to get on my nerves? Can't they jux sense smth's wrong n come to a stop? N they jux keep on blabbering n scolding scolding n still scolding! I've had it lor. Wat does they treat me as? As a non-living which they can use it to vent their stupid anger? They got their temper, as if I don't! Sometimes i feel like shouting at them, "Will u all stop it?!!!" Bt I didn't. I know I won't. I know even thou I'm really angry, I won't use words to hurt them. But, do they undrstnd this theory too?
Take for my sis as e.g. She kept saying, "I dont undrstnd wat! I don't undrstnd. Can u nt shout?" Hello, its like she's the 1 who kept saying she dont undrstnd, jux becuz, she doesn't even bother to read! Keep saying, my teacher didnt teach or wat-so-ever. U mean, by sec 2 alrd, u dont know hw to even read as UR OWN? N expect me to do everyth she doesn't know n hand tt assignment done by me, in? Don't be naive la, teacher will know it wasn't u who were actually doing all the wrk, becuz, ur test results alrd show it to them clearly enough. Cuz even if I help her do, she doesn't even bother to read my wrk n undrstnd it!! I've had enough lor. She... can totally... burst my blood vessels! Aww..
Now I finally undrstnd y David say he's lucky to b the only child. Cuz he doesn't need to burst his blood vessels by teaching siblings! David, nw, I envy u. *sighs*
As if my day isn't bad enough, I didn't see BSG for like... 22 days alrd! I'm alrd sad enough le lor. N nobody even cares ok? Nt even my sis lor. Then who can I turn to, if we're quarelling? Oh God! Please help!
BSG: !!! Come out la, I lik can collect my tears n turn it into a pond alrd? Come out la... please. I sad until... argh! Come out pls... *sobs*
A day that passes,
Means a day nearer in meeting u.